Happy New Year's Eve! I cant believe tomorrow is 2008. Damn that means I turn 48 this year. Damn Time has flown by to fast. I looked back and it has been a week since I posted. Not like me. Oh well. Life has been busy. Very tiring.
By Friday I was so exhausted and burned out that I told everyone I am not leaving my house on Sat and I didnt. I just couldnt. I felt so much better sleeping in.
Friday Elly and Dido and I met up at this place called Rendevous, downtown. Bar and they sell baked good. Interesting combo. Right on the corner w/ lots of glass to enjoy the warm sun on our back. It felt so good. We had the best time. We started out w/ martini's, of course mine was chocolate. It was so good. They even added expresso. Moved on to mojito's. Had a pomegrate. Yummy!!!. Then last was expresso w/ 2 shots of baileys. Buzzed and had a little energy to finish out the day in town. It was so fun hanging out w/ them. We laughed our asses off. It was great. After our visit I met up w/ JJ at his apartment for a little bit. I was too tired to have sex. Not like me but my brain was so fried from the last 2 weeks. No energy. We talked about our weekend and our plans. I left his place and got me take out chinese and came home and just lounged on the couch til 8pm and went to bed to crash. JJ got to meet up w/ some guy friends later that evening so he would call to check in as I would call it. He truely is not Terry. He called and let me know when he got in so I wouldnt worry about him. Hell I really didnt because I was so out of it. I have really learned alot about my reactions in the last year. Before when he went out I had these wierd feelings but not that night. I know things will come up and actually I will tell you about a wierd feeling that came up this morning on our way back from phoenix. Not yet though.
I was hoping he was coming over Sat evening but instead he surprized me and came over Sat at around lunch time. He brought over stuff to cook for dinner also. W/O Jr things are just easier. More relaxed. The Direct tv people were suppose to come to the house between 12 to 4pm. Came at 4:30. They were up here in Flagstaff installing since 8 from PHoenix. They still had one more to do. I think personally they over book these guys. But I got my new receiver w/ tivo installed and I am loving my new system and my living room. Watched the patriots and giants Sat nite and it was so good. I love my new tv. I slept terrible that night when we went to bed. The phone rang one ring 3 different times during the night. I woke up ever frickin hour. I was exhausted the next morning. We got up and went down to see the girls. Took them to the new movie Walk Hard. Not a kid movie. Lots of sexually explicit stuff. JJ had no idea. I didnt either. Not appropriate but we left after the movie and went out to lunch. I told them the next time that wouldnt happen again. Once Lunch was over we took them home and headed to Tempe and checked in our room. Stinked of cigarettes. Yuck. For a Motel 6 they redid the rooms so it looked nicer and the bed was comfortable but the smell was aweful. Reminded me of how Terry always smelled. Discusting. Dont miss that smell at all. We got to rest and got dressed for the concert and headed over. It is cool out at night but not siberia like here. The concert was awesome. Had a great time. Nashville Pussy was awesome. Its 2 guys and 2 girls. One guy plays drums and the other guitar, the 2 girls play lead guitar and bass. They rocked. I thought these guys have it good, stand on stage w/ 2 hot girls and they can play guitars like no one's business. Hank III was not performing due to sickness. Reverend Horton Heat played w/ a special guest, Lemmy from Motorhead. They jammed. Oh my god, the concert was awesome. Had a great time. Well we didnt stay for them to come back out because JJ needed some sleep since he had to work today. Normally he doesnt work before the holiday but at the last minute they told him on Friday he had to work. So we got back to the hotel close to midnight and got up at 3am. Oh my god, I was in such a deep sleep. I stayed awake w/ him getting back up the hill. Hardly any traffic so we made good time getting back up here. I still hate being on the interstate at night. As we got past the sedona exit we notice lots of lights up above. Going south bound was a big line of vehicles lined up not moving. Found out later a truck over turned and the guy died. Cars were being divereted thru Sedona and the tractor trailers had to wait. Glad it wasnt the other way. Dropped JJ off and came home and crashed til 8:30. I am still tired.
We are talking about going out to dinner tonight downtown and getting drinks. Seeing the pine cone drop at 10pm. They do it for the families since its midnight in New York. Go back to his place after and hang out. Get some rest and wake up together in the new year!
I am truely looking forward to the new year. I have so much hope for 2008. I know JJ doesnt because he feels like it will take months for him to catch up on bills. I have to decide what my new goals are for the next year. So far the last 2 years I have met them.
Oh my wierd feeling was when we left the hotel and this song came on from Billy Ray Cyrus about his ex getting married. This Sat Terry gets married. It struck the weirdest feeling in me. It made me sad for a few minutes. Then JJ reached over and held my hand and gave me a look w/ a smile. Its such a trip to think he is already going to remarry. I know Sat I will have to do something positive like workout for sure because I think Sat will put me in a wierd mood. This too will all past. I have also realized how lucky I am to have this man in my life who shows me so much love and appreciation. What I didnt get before. So on that note I am going to relax alittle more and then get in the shower and get ready for my evening w/ my man to bring in the new year.
I hope all have a wonderful evening together w/ whoever you celebrate w/. Will think about my new goals tomorrow. Happy New Years!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas to all. I am at work right now. I have had a wonderful Christmas. I had off yesterday so JJ and I went down to see the girls and took them out to lunch. They liked their gifts. We made their blankets. It was a nice visit.
Jr got out of jail yesterday morning and JJ gave him his presents. He like his blanket. JJ got him on the bus w/ jr using his christmas money for a bus ticket. His mom couldnt buy the ticket and jr got money from JJ's mom and dad and JJ was going to give him some money for christmas. He told his mom he had to him back. Doubt if that will happen. But he did get to California. Except he left his back pack under his seat which had the box to his new shoes and a video of his grandmother who died this last year and there are no copies. JJ called the bus stop and the bus stopped in phoenix and ended there and it was gone.
We made our way back up and had dinner w/ Jeni and b. It was nice. JJ felt bad that he didnt really give me much. He gave me a video. I told him I was very happy that him and I have had time together and everything worked out. I opened my gift from my mom and dad. Got a card w/ a check for $50.00. Nice. bath stuff, razors, face stuff, candles, a hurricane lamp to put candles in, and snowman chocolate fondue set.
I treated myself to a wonderful gift of Samsung 37inch LCD HD w/ blu ray HD DVD. I paid extra to have it set up and it looks all neat behind the tv and stand. It was worth it bigtime. I got a gift card from best buy and so between that the money my mom gave me it paid for my Planet Earth dvd that is a blu ray hd. My living room looks awesome now.
Work is becoming busy. So off to get pt's ready. Mainly sledding and slipping accidents. sledding accidents that are fractures to the backs. amazing.
Hope all have had a wonderful Christmas!
Jr got out of jail yesterday morning and JJ gave him his presents. He like his blanket. JJ got him on the bus w/ jr using his christmas money for a bus ticket. His mom couldnt buy the ticket and jr got money from JJ's mom and dad and JJ was going to give him some money for christmas. He told his mom he had to him back. Doubt if that will happen. But he did get to California. Except he left his back pack under his seat which had the box to his new shoes and a video of his grandmother who died this last year and there are no copies. JJ called the bus stop and the bus stopped in phoenix and ended there and it was gone.
We made our way back up and had dinner w/ Jeni and b. It was nice. JJ felt bad that he didnt really give me much. He gave me a video. I told him I was very happy that him and I have had time together and everything worked out. I opened my gift from my mom and dad. Got a card w/ a check for $50.00. Nice. bath stuff, razors, face stuff, candles, a hurricane lamp to put candles in, and snowman chocolate fondue set.
I treated myself to a wonderful gift of Samsung 37inch LCD HD w/ blu ray HD DVD. I paid extra to have it set up and it looks all neat behind the tv and stand. It was worth it bigtime. I got a gift card from best buy and so between that the money my mom gave me it paid for my Planet Earth dvd that is a blu ray hd. My living room looks awesome now.
Work is becoming busy. So off to get pt's ready. Mainly sledding and slipping accidents. sledding accidents that are fractures to the backs. amazing.
Hope all have had a wonderful Christmas!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
The other post!
I didnt want to ruin my other post of happy stuff w/ this. But jr went to court. Found out 1st 2 urine test diluted. 3rd dirty. He tried to lie to the judge and got called on everything. He goes into jail tomorrow when school is over at noon. Gives another test and if the levels come down then he can get out on Monday and goes straight to the bus station. If not then he stays in Jail. So now what he has done has effected everyone once again. This kid doesnt care and is not affraid. So if he gets out on Monday, then we have to wait to go Phoenix which puts down their later. So our time w/ the girls will be cut short, not fair to them. He will at lease get to see his sisters before he goes. Then off to bus station. The judge could tell that JJ is fed up. I know it breaks his heart.
So this will put us on the road later which you all know I am not a fan of being on the Interstate at night! I have to get up at 4:30 for work. So that will shorten our time together. But on the other hand our time together is about to increase.
So JJ is telling him to pack all his stuff tonight because there will no time before he leaves. I know there is so much tension between them.
This all sucks. He did it, from start to finish of 2007, he figured out to be in trouble all the time. Fucking amazing!
I know that this is so hard on JJ. It would be hard on any parent. It will be such a huge weight gone when he gets on that bus. It is so sad. It is such a waste of such potential. I dont what it will take to stop this kid in his tracks and knock some sense in him. Just sad.
So this will put us on the road later which you all know I am not a fan of being on the Interstate at night! I have to get up at 4:30 for work. So that will shorten our time together. But on the other hand our time together is about to increase.
So JJ is telling him to pack all his stuff tonight because there will no time before he leaves. I know there is so much tension between them.
This all sucks. He did it, from start to finish of 2007, he figured out to be in trouble all the time. Fucking amazing!
I know that this is so hard on JJ. It would be hard on any parent. It will be such a huge weight gone when he gets on that bus. It is so sad. It is such a waste of such potential. I dont what it will take to stop this kid in his tracks and knock some sense in him. Just sad.
Interesting day!
I have a great day. Work went great. I found out I am off on Christmas eve. I am so excited about that. The next several days will be busy but it will so be worth it.
So much to do but it will all be fun stuff.
I had a busy day but got off, mailed a package off for Jason since his schedule is just very busy. Got to spend time w/ him after that and we had complete privacy so we got to enjoy our time. Then off to work out. Only did the aerobics because I needed to get over to this couple's house to feed their dogs. The female of the couple, devo, had an irregular stress test so they did a cardiac cath and her main artery to the heart was 90% occluded. Her hubby who works in the OR is the one who just had a heart attack and was just recently stented also in the same artery. Man what is that about. Crazy. She had big time family hx. So I called her and it all worked out. We had no heart team so hubby took her to Phoenix to get it done. That sucks. Thats a 2 to 2 1/2 hour drive depending on traffic. Just proves at how precious life is and how short it can be. Just so makes me appreciative of my life and what I have and how blessed I am.
I also got good news in the mail for my pap and labs. I am healthy. All is normal. Its awesome. That is such a relief to know where I am at going into 2008. I need to look up cholesterol and just read on it because I cant keep straight which part of the cholesterol is normal.
Have so much to do this weekend. Work, and when I get off, run home to pack a bag for Sat. Take care of the babies. Go back to town and hopefully if JJ gets off then he will go w/ me downtown to Sher's birthday party. She turns 50. Looking forward to that. Staying at JJ's so we can get up early and go shopping together for the kids. I am so excited about shopping for the kids and spending time w/ my honey. I am on call so hopefully I wont get call in til way later. I want to be able to take a nap in case I work all nite. Sunday we are going to make the blankets for all the kids. Monday go down to phoenix and see the girls. Take them a cooler of snow, go out to lunch, and watch them opening their gifts. This will be the highlight of my christmas. This is such a gift from God. It is the true meaning of Christmas for sure. (I know you ask what about Jr. I will save another post for him, not good at all. Dont want to ruin this post.)
Then after we get back up cook our dinner and enjoy our time w/ each other. This is our gift to each other. He brought the ham already. This man is such a gift to me. I cant imagine him not being in my life. We adore each other. We are like 2 little kids as far as calling each other all the time and text each other. Its so kool to have someone who just wants to be w/ me so much. This next year is going to be awesome! I know it!
Christmas I get to wake up w/ JJ and then open my gift from my mom and dad and give JJ the picture in a frame that I made up for him. All before I leave for work by 5:30 or so. I might have to open my gift from my mom and dad later. Not sure.
Life is good!
So much to do but it will all be fun stuff.
I had a busy day but got off, mailed a package off for Jason since his schedule is just very busy. Got to spend time w/ him after that and we had complete privacy so we got to enjoy our time. Then off to work out. Only did the aerobics because I needed to get over to this couple's house to feed their dogs. The female of the couple, devo, had an irregular stress test so they did a cardiac cath and her main artery to the heart was 90% occluded. Her hubby who works in the OR is the one who just had a heart attack and was just recently stented also in the same artery. Man what is that about. Crazy. She had big time family hx. So I called her and it all worked out. We had no heart team so hubby took her to Phoenix to get it done. That sucks. Thats a 2 to 2 1/2 hour drive depending on traffic. Just proves at how precious life is and how short it can be. Just so makes me appreciative of my life and what I have and how blessed I am.
I also got good news in the mail for my pap and labs. I am healthy. All is normal. Its awesome. That is such a relief to know where I am at going into 2008. I need to look up cholesterol and just read on it because I cant keep straight which part of the cholesterol is normal.
Have so much to do this weekend. Work, and when I get off, run home to pack a bag for Sat. Take care of the babies. Go back to town and hopefully if JJ gets off then he will go w/ me downtown to Sher's birthday party. She turns 50. Looking forward to that. Staying at JJ's so we can get up early and go shopping together for the kids. I am so excited about shopping for the kids and spending time w/ my honey. I am on call so hopefully I wont get call in til way later. I want to be able to take a nap in case I work all nite. Sunday we are going to make the blankets for all the kids. Monday go down to phoenix and see the girls. Take them a cooler of snow, go out to lunch, and watch them opening their gifts. This will be the highlight of my christmas. This is such a gift from God. It is the true meaning of Christmas for sure. (I know you ask what about Jr. I will save another post for him, not good at all. Dont want to ruin this post.)
Then after we get back up cook our dinner and enjoy our time w/ each other. This is our gift to each other. He brought the ham already. This man is such a gift to me. I cant imagine him not being in my life. We adore each other. We are like 2 little kids as far as calling each other all the time and text each other. Its so kool to have someone who just wants to be w/ me so much. This next year is going to be awesome! I know it!
Christmas I get to wake up w/ JJ and then open my gift from my mom and dad and give JJ the picture in a frame that I made up for him. All before I leave for work by 5:30 or so. I might have to open my gift from my mom and dad later. Not sure.
Life is good!
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Whew Got it done!
I am so proud of myself. I slept over at JJ's and brought everything I would need to get every thing in town done today. I had today off, So glad. I got up, worked out. Then on to Target to get pics printed up w/ a border to send my parents and Sheila. Got the pics printed there, Got the frames. Also got all the packing items I would need at the post office. I also had 2 other gifts for my parents to mail off. I was able to pack it, and mail it off all in the same place.
I also as I was sitting w/ JJ last nite on his couch, Did all my christmas, or I think almost all. So got those mailed off. So it just felt like a huge weight lifted off my shoulder to have it done. Also got to visit w/ Dido at Chili's for their quesadilla explosion salad. Yummy!
Also got to catch up w/ JJ and hang out for a few.
Our day will be Christmas eve this year. If JJ is off, which usually he is off the day before the holiday, lets keep our fingers crossed. We are going to make the girls blankets this weekend and then take their gifts to them on the Eve. Go out to lunch, open presents, and bring them a cooler of snow! We are excited about it and we found out that Sammy still believes in Santa Claus. Its so kool that she does. So we are going to leave the big gift from Santa w/ Stac so Sammy gets it on Christmas and tell her that Santa left it her house since she was going to be there! Then we will come back and cook our Christmas dinner and spend the evening together depending if jr is gone or not will depend on where we do it! It will just mean so much to each of us to have that time together. We will be laughing and hanging together, maybe dancing in my livingroom! Nice!
Hope all are well and just know I am thinking of all of you!
I also as I was sitting w/ JJ last nite on his couch, Did all my christmas, or I think almost all. So got those mailed off. So it just felt like a huge weight lifted off my shoulder to have it done. Also got to visit w/ Dido at Chili's for their quesadilla explosion salad. Yummy!
Also got to catch up w/ JJ and hang out for a few.
Our day will be Christmas eve this year. If JJ is off, which usually he is off the day before the holiday, lets keep our fingers crossed. We are going to make the girls blankets this weekend and then take their gifts to them on the Eve. Go out to lunch, open presents, and bring them a cooler of snow! We are excited about it and we found out that Sammy still believes in Santa Claus. Its so kool that she does. So we are going to leave the big gift from Santa w/ Stac so Sammy gets it on Christmas and tell her that Santa left it her house since she was going to be there! Then we will come back and cook our Christmas dinner and spend the evening together depending if jr is gone or not will depend on where we do it! It will just mean so much to each of us to have that time together. We will be laughing and hanging together, maybe dancing in my livingroom! Nice!
Hope all are well and just know I am thinking of all of you!
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Turned out well!
My man got to go w/ me to my christmas party. His job cancelled and so he got back early enough so we could go. I looked really nice and he dressed up also and we got there and no body dressed up. Nice sweaters and jeans. I didnt know it wouldn't be dressy. But it was still nice. We did a gift exchange that was funny. Our gift price limit was $20.00 and so I bought a really nice gift. We do our gift exchange to the poem about Santa and all throught the house. I get a puzzle. One of the ladies grandson was included. He brought his own gift. It was the puzzle. So needless to say I was alittle disappointed. It didnt really matter. I guess. I left it at my charge nurses's house. It started supposely at 4 but most people came around 5pm. There was so much traffice, Graduation weekend and Snowbowl is opened for skiing and snow boarding. Crazy Crazy.
I did stay at JJ's last night and spend the night w/ him. He had to get up at 5:30 for work. I stayed in his bed and slept for alittle while longer and finally headed to the house around 8 this morning.
My Game is on at 2pm here. Dallas against Eagles. It will be a good game. So my chore of the day is to clear off my big table to make my blanket. I found the material in the closet. So I want to get that done. And then decorate the table for christmas. I have this really beautiful white table cloth my mom gave me and several mats that are green w/ a red flower in the middle. I also have on the table the candle holder that biker gave me. So I am spreading the christmas spirit to the front of the house.
Oh the court date is Thursday at 2pm to decide if Jr moves back to California. Ashame just Ashame. I truely do wish him the best but dont know if that will be in the cards for him. So this kid could be out of here by next weekend. If he is, as hard as this has been on the 2 of them, it will have to feel like a weight lifted at the same time. I dont know I am not a parent and so I just know this has to feel terrible.
I am going to try to get off on Christmas eve so him and I can go down to see the girls and take them out to lunch and give them their gifts. Spend time w/ them. Then come back up and make christmas dinner of a honey spiral ham. Yummmmmmmmy. We will spend it at my home. Maybe invite Jen and Brent over for dinner. We will see, crazy time of the year. Just not enough time w/ eveybody becoming so busy w/ Christmas.
I am on call next weekend before and I am working Christmas day at 6am. Double time, good money and my call this weekend will all be on the same check along w/ Christmas day. Need it before New Years eve weekend. JJ and I are going to Tempe for a concert at our favorite place to see concerts. It would be cool to stay at a place we have wanted to stay at just him and I. Not for the kiddo's. I am in total agreement w/ him on that one. I am excited about the new year ahead. I really am. Will go into that as we get closer.
Well off to get busy on the front room and pull out the material. Kool a new blanket that I will have made, and warm!
I did stay at JJ's last night and spend the night w/ him. He had to get up at 5:30 for work. I stayed in his bed and slept for alittle while longer and finally headed to the house around 8 this morning.
My Game is on at 2pm here. Dallas against Eagles. It will be a good game. So my chore of the day is to clear off my big table to make my blanket. I found the material in the closet. So I want to get that done. And then decorate the table for christmas. I have this really beautiful white table cloth my mom gave me and several mats that are green w/ a red flower in the middle. I also have on the table the candle holder that biker gave me. So I am spreading the christmas spirit to the front of the house.
Oh the court date is Thursday at 2pm to decide if Jr moves back to California. Ashame just Ashame. I truely do wish him the best but dont know if that will be in the cards for him. So this kid could be out of here by next weekend. If he is, as hard as this has been on the 2 of them, it will have to feel like a weight lifted at the same time. I dont know I am not a parent and so I just know this has to feel terrible.
I am going to try to get off on Christmas eve so him and I can go down to see the girls and take them out to lunch and give them their gifts. Spend time w/ them. Then come back up and make christmas dinner of a honey spiral ham. Yummmmmmmmy. We will spend it at my home. Maybe invite Jen and Brent over for dinner. We will see, crazy time of the year. Just not enough time w/ eveybody becoming so busy w/ Christmas.
I am on call next weekend before and I am working Christmas day at 6am. Double time, good money and my call this weekend will all be on the same check along w/ Christmas day. Need it before New Years eve weekend. JJ and I are going to Tempe for a concert at our favorite place to see concerts. It would be cool to stay at a place we have wanted to stay at just him and I. Not for the kiddo's. I am in total agreement w/ him on that one. I am excited about the new year ahead. I really am. Will go into that as we get closer.
Well off to get busy on the front room and pull out the material. Kool a new blanket that I will have made, and warm!
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Question?
Question of the day or probably week for me, Why do we keep stuff? I love that show Clean Sweep on TLC. I love everything about the show. I really think Eric is hot cabinet maker. He cracked me up this morning because he kept telling himself he could it, and then he is becoming louder as he says it and it was just funny. I also love how they clear out a room and have 3 piles, keep, sell, and toss. Then after you do it the 1st time, you make a new pile for the keep and put more in the sell pile. The guy who goes thru that stuff goes thru the emotional reason of why we keep stuff and what purpose or value this piece has. Then they decorate the room and make it functional. Its a good motivator to me. It has felt good to do that. My stuff I put in the sell pile as they say is the donate pile. I am only going to sell the big pieces and get rid of the stuff. Before the end of the year take the donate stuff and get a receipt for tax deduction.
The emotional stuff that goes w/ the stuff has been interesting for me in going thru my stuff and why did I buy that or if it was given to me. I hardly get rid of the gifts because I have been very fortuate in what friends and family have given me.
I put in a pile these dry flowers in a wicker vase. It was from when I went to the old slave market in downtown Charleston with this girl, Mary. We did so many drugs. Pure and simple. We had the best time and just laughed our assess off. I was 22 or 23 at the time. The day was good til the night when I had to go home and I drove. It was aweful and I remember getting to the house and Terry and our neighbor Mundy were going out downtown and I begged him not to leave me. He didnt go and then I spent 1/2 the night cleaning and scrubbing the kitchen. Nuts, absolutely nuts. I found out later she screwed my husband one night when she came over and they drugged my drink and they went at it in the livingroom while I was passed out in the bedroom. I didnt find out tile years later. Man I will tell you I was an idiot for staying w/ Terry. When I look back at the things he did what was I thinking. I was so young and didnt know any better back then. Things truely werent spoken about as much as today for sure. So I decided that along w/ the happy was the aweful. So needless to say it went in the donate pile.
This truely is a great thing that I am doing this. It is a great way to get rid of those emotions and the crap. Good therapy.
Onto other things. Got a bonus yeaterday as thank you for doing such a great job from the CEO. There are 2 sister hospitals that share computers,ect and so everyone in both places got a bonus. $450.00 before taxes. It came to $281.00 after taxes. That was great timing, in between paychecks. Went and deposit this and it help pay for my hair.
The anesthesia department give us an annual barbeque. This year instead of going thru the cafeteria they went w/ a local place from downtown. Had brisket and ribs and the fixins. It was yummy.
Went and got my hair done and it came out so pretty and sexy. I love it. I went out to a christmas party downtown. I walked in and was center of attention. They were doing gifts when I walked in and then you get a number. Well my number was the one they were on. So I have to tell who I am and what class I go to and sit in front of everybody and open a gift. There are a good 30 people staring at me. And my teacher tells everyone to compliment me on my hair since I just got it done. Talk about being put on the spot. Didnt expect to walk in on this. But I got this cool gift of champaine and different chocalates. I was so excited and it got stolen. I didnt know I could steal a gift. I ended up w/ these 2 really pretty painted ornaments in really cool containers. Love it. I stayed for one drink. I was so exhausted. I wanted to be home.
This week was absolutely exhausting. It was so busy. I decided not to go anywhere this morning. I just wanted to drink a cup of coffee and relax. I cant believe looking out my window at all the snow still. This rarely happens that it lasts for awhile. I really hope we have a white christmas. Thats what I want for Christmas.
Oh Biker I got your card and letter. Thank you so much I just loved it. Its beautiful. It was made w/ love and it shows. Again thank you.
I have somewhat of a busy day ahead of me. I have to make a side dish for my christmas party. I am going to look for a recipe w/ the ingredients I have at the house. I cant wait to wear this outfit that I bought this top and pants this last year. The top is grey and white sleeveless that is dressy. The pants are the one I bought to wear to "O" in vegas that are flowy and nice. And to top it off I have a black velvet jacket w/ this Dolphin pin that is shiny. I also have these beautiful black dressy earings and bracelet that I bought in Florida last year. I was so excited to dress up and look really nice and my guy wont be there after all. He had to stay out of town again to work today. He wont be home til 8 tonight. He was truely so disappointed that he wasnt going w/ me. He likes to dress up. Have my hair and makeup done up. Jen gave me the idea to take a pic of myself and blow it up and put it in a frame for JJ. And I guess my parents, too. They would like that to.
I also told him he cant move to California. I have missed him alot. I could handle him being gone for a few days w/ his job because he would be coming back to me but if he moves to Cali then that wouldnt be the case. So time will tell what happens. Cant keep thinking about it today. Anyway love the holidays.
Hope your weekend is good!
The emotional stuff that goes w/ the stuff has been interesting for me in going thru my stuff and why did I buy that or if it was given to me. I hardly get rid of the gifts because I have been very fortuate in what friends and family have given me.
I put in a pile these dry flowers in a wicker vase. It was from when I went to the old slave market in downtown Charleston with this girl, Mary. We did so many drugs. Pure and simple. We had the best time and just laughed our assess off. I was 22 or 23 at the time. The day was good til the night when I had to go home and I drove. It was aweful and I remember getting to the house and Terry and our neighbor Mundy were going out downtown and I begged him not to leave me. He didnt go and then I spent 1/2 the night cleaning and scrubbing the kitchen. Nuts, absolutely nuts. I found out later she screwed my husband one night when she came over and they drugged my drink and they went at it in the livingroom while I was passed out in the bedroom. I didnt find out tile years later. Man I will tell you I was an idiot for staying w/ Terry. When I look back at the things he did what was I thinking. I was so young and didnt know any better back then. Things truely werent spoken about as much as today for sure. So I decided that along w/ the happy was the aweful. So needless to say it went in the donate pile.
This truely is a great thing that I am doing this. It is a great way to get rid of those emotions and the crap. Good therapy.
Onto other things. Got a bonus yeaterday as thank you for doing such a great job from the CEO. There are 2 sister hospitals that share computers,ect and so everyone in both places got a bonus. $450.00 before taxes. It came to $281.00 after taxes. That was great timing, in between paychecks. Went and deposit this and it help pay for my hair.
The anesthesia department give us an annual barbeque. This year instead of going thru the cafeteria they went w/ a local place from downtown. Had brisket and ribs and the fixins. It was yummy.
Went and got my hair done and it came out so pretty and sexy. I love it. I went out to a christmas party downtown. I walked in and was center of attention. They were doing gifts when I walked in and then you get a number. Well my number was the one they were on. So I have to tell who I am and what class I go to and sit in front of everybody and open a gift. There are a good 30 people staring at me. And my teacher tells everyone to compliment me on my hair since I just got it done. Talk about being put on the spot. Didnt expect to walk in on this. But I got this cool gift of champaine and different chocalates. I was so excited and it got stolen. I didnt know I could steal a gift. I ended up w/ these 2 really pretty painted ornaments in really cool containers. Love it. I stayed for one drink. I was so exhausted. I wanted to be home.
This week was absolutely exhausting. It was so busy. I decided not to go anywhere this morning. I just wanted to drink a cup of coffee and relax. I cant believe looking out my window at all the snow still. This rarely happens that it lasts for awhile. I really hope we have a white christmas. Thats what I want for Christmas.
Oh Biker I got your card and letter. Thank you so much I just loved it. Its beautiful. It was made w/ love and it shows. Again thank you.
I have somewhat of a busy day ahead of me. I have to make a side dish for my christmas party. I am going to look for a recipe w/ the ingredients I have at the house. I cant wait to wear this outfit that I bought this top and pants this last year. The top is grey and white sleeveless that is dressy. The pants are the one I bought to wear to "O" in vegas that are flowy and nice. And to top it off I have a black velvet jacket w/ this Dolphin pin that is shiny. I also have these beautiful black dressy earings and bracelet that I bought in Florida last year. I was so excited to dress up and look really nice and my guy wont be there after all. He had to stay out of town again to work today. He wont be home til 8 tonight. He was truely so disappointed that he wasnt going w/ me. He likes to dress up. Have my hair and makeup done up. Jen gave me the idea to take a pic of myself and blow it up and put it in a frame for JJ. And I guess my parents, too. They would like that to.
I also told him he cant move to California. I have missed him alot. I could handle him being gone for a few days w/ his job because he would be coming back to me but if he moves to Cali then that wouldnt be the case. So time will tell what happens. Cant keep thinking about it today. Anyway love the holidays.
Hope your weekend is good!
Friday, December 14, 2007
Woohoo Its Friday!
I am so happy its Friday. I want a cup of coffee but I am getting labs done and you have to be fasting like the blood sugar, cholesterol, etc. I dont have to be at work til 7:30 and the lab opens at 7 so I can get it done this morning and then straight for a cup of coffee. I only have about a cup or 2 and thats it.
After work I will get my hair done, I am so ready to be beautified. And then go downtown for a party w/ the people from Jazz. Only for a little while. Speaking of, she did this new routine and I am so sore right now. I was so exhausted from work yesterday but Dido was my motivator. They are having a mini personal touch the next 4 weeks. This week is the abds. Its $20.00. I am thinking of getting up to do that and then the class after. Get in a good workout.
I have lots to do tomorrow. I have to buy a gift for my christmas party from work, $20.00 limit. I also need to make a side dish. JJ agreed to go w/ me. He has been out of town working the last several days and might be there tomorrow again to work and then come home. He needs the money so bad. So it will be like a date tomorrow.
The anesthesiologists are giving us their annual barbeque dinner today for lunch. Its okay. And then Wed is our pot luck for all of surgical services. There is always so much food its unbelievable. I am off that day and so I am going to miss all the calories. No biggie.
Well off to get ready for work. I hope today is nothing like yesterday!
After work I will get my hair done, I am so ready to be beautified. And then go downtown for a party w/ the people from Jazz. Only for a little while. Speaking of, she did this new routine and I am so sore right now. I was so exhausted from work yesterday but Dido was my motivator. They are having a mini personal touch the next 4 weeks. This week is the abds. Its $20.00. I am thinking of getting up to do that and then the class after. Get in a good workout.
I have lots to do tomorrow. I have to buy a gift for my christmas party from work, $20.00 limit. I also need to make a side dish. JJ agreed to go w/ me. He has been out of town working the last several days and might be there tomorrow again to work and then come home. He needs the money so bad. So it will be like a date tomorrow.
The anesthesiologists are giving us their annual barbeque dinner today for lunch. Its okay. And then Wed is our pot luck for all of surgical services. There is always so much food its unbelievable. I am off that day and so I am going to miss all the calories. No biggie.
Well off to get ready for work. I hope today is nothing like yesterday!
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Glad this day is over
This day started out good and enjoyable. Then I go to Lunch and it just got so frustrating w/ the docs and getting patients ready. I felt so pushed. It pissed me off. Then I had to go to a meeting that included my boss, the boss over behavior health, to discuss the guy who I am training. He is a nice guy, I know he wants to do a good job, but its hard for him to grasp. I walked out just knowing that I never want to be in job managment. No way. I am not the management type.
But I had a nice drive home looking at all the snow and just was happy I lived here. I poured me a 7&7 and just sat down to relax. I did get up to make me sweet potatoe fries. That is my 2nd yummiest thing next to Macaroni and cheese. I cleaned up my kitchen and decided I am going to change out my coffee maker that I have had forever now and use one of the others I have that takes up less space on my counter. I was amazed at the difference. But I am trying to decide if I want 10 cup or a one cup that goes into a mug w/ a lid. Will decide for sure tomorrow when I see if the 10 cup works.
I got an interesting call from Jeni tonight and she tells me she is looking at possibly moving to California. Rent a place and get a job there. I kind of played the devil advocate on different things to think about. She has a son to think of and she doesnt want to lose B, her boyfriend. She asked me if JJ moves to Cali would I move w/ him, I said nope. I told him when we got into this that I need so much amount of time and I am sticking to it. I sacrified for 26 years for a man and I am not giving up what I have right now for anyone. I am not going to try to sell my house and lose money, no way. I have a house for a reason, to have a tax deduction and to make money off of it. She was really surprized that I wouldnt do it. Jr will be 18 in 2 years and I said I would wait til he turns 18 and if we are still together. Anything could happen. I really have come to terms w/ him possibly moving. I will be sad but we will figure a way around it. Since Last weekend when so much happend and came out I have just said alrighty, my life is pretty good and I am happy w/ it. Mine you I want to live near the water and hopefully that will eventually happen. But not right now.
I am sleeping better. I can tell a difference taking the calcium w/ magnesium and vit D. It helps me sleep. A warm mist humidifier near the bedside. This is my week to PMS. I am trying not to go crazy so to speak. I am trying to take better care of me. I am going to work out tomorrow and then I get my hair done on Friday. It always helps me to feel pretty and sexy.
Well off to relax and then get ready for bed.
But I had a nice drive home looking at all the snow and just was happy I lived here. I poured me a 7&7 and just sat down to relax. I did get up to make me sweet potatoe fries. That is my 2nd yummiest thing next to Macaroni and cheese. I cleaned up my kitchen and decided I am going to change out my coffee maker that I have had forever now and use one of the others I have that takes up less space on my counter. I was amazed at the difference. But I am trying to decide if I want 10 cup or a one cup that goes into a mug w/ a lid. Will decide for sure tomorrow when I see if the 10 cup works.
I got an interesting call from Jeni tonight and she tells me she is looking at possibly moving to California. Rent a place and get a job there. I kind of played the devil advocate on different things to think about. She has a son to think of and she doesnt want to lose B, her boyfriend. She asked me if JJ moves to Cali would I move w/ him, I said nope. I told him when we got into this that I need so much amount of time and I am sticking to it. I sacrified for 26 years for a man and I am not giving up what I have right now for anyone. I am not going to try to sell my house and lose money, no way. I have a house for a reason, to have a tax deduction and to make money off of it. She was really surprized that I wouldnt do it. Jr will be 18 in 2 years and I said I would wait til he turns 18 and if we are still together. Anything could happen. I really have come to terms w/ him possibly moving. I will be sad but we will figure a way around it. Since Last weekend when so much happend and came out I have just said alrighty, my life is pretty good and I am happy w/ it. Mine you I want to live near the water and hopefully that will eventually happen. But not right now.
I am sleeping better. I can tell a difference taking the calcium w/ magnesium and vit D. It helps me sleep. A warm mist humidifier near the bedside. This is my week to PMS. I am trying not to go crazy so to speak. I am trying to take better care of me. I am going to work out tomorrow and then I get my hair done on Friday. It always helps me to feel pretty and sexy.
Well off to relax and then get ready for bed.
Winer Wonderland
It is absolutely gorgeous out. There is so much snow. This is the 1st day of no snow since the weekend. Went snowshoeing yesterday w/ Diane and had a great time. legs are sore today. Hoping to get a good picture of the mountain today when ellen and I go today after work. The sun will be out hopefully so you can really see the snow.
So hopefully I can email you a pic for a christmas card.
Have a good day all!
So hopefully I can email you a pic for a christmas card.
Have a good day all!
Monday, December 10, 2007
Got thru the day
My head is still driving me crazy. I become so worn out by afternoon and then get some fresh and it wakes me up. I stopped and got me chinese food. I was just so craving it big time. I know I should eat what I have at the house but I just couldn't I had to have it. Left overs for tomorrow. I got home, had a glass of wine and ate dinner. I was so stuffed up, so I went and cleaned my sinuses and what a difference. Alot of people have this stuff. I will just keep at this until this passes.
Picked JJ up and we went and bought him some good work gloves that will keep his hands warm. Its 16 degrees in the morning. It has snowed big time since this morning, non stop. It is absolutely gorgeous out. Suppose to keep getting snow til Wed morning. It just never happens like this. We need another storm to come thru and dump again so the snow on the mountain doesnt go away. They have so between last weekend and this weekend 47 inches up there at the peaks. They are opening snowbowl this Thursday. I am hopefully if weather permits going snowshoeing tomorrow. But anyway we did alittle running around and talked about all that is going on.
Its Just so sad and it just sucks but jr is going back to California. Things are in motion and there will be a court date. They will probably wait to transfer him after he gets out of school for the holidays. JJ is so done. I told him it had to break his heart that things turned out like this but he can still be proud that he tried. This kid will probably get in trouble in California and at this point what does it matter he will be in trouble here and or there. I will be surprized if he graduates high school. He needs all the encouragement he needs.
I am just so happy that I am home in my jammies. Looking at my lights. I need to get busy on my christmas cards. After reading biker's blog, I need to get it in gear on the cards. Dont have alot of gifts to buy since not exchancing gifts much. I know I will at lease have a gift from my mom and dad to open on Christmas day and you know what thats find. I am going to work early and then spending the evening w/ JJ. Probably here if jr is in cali already. Which is what is important to me is the time spent together. Its not about the bling bling and things, its about being w/ the ones you love and making sure the ones you cant be with, know how much you care about them. This year is about the spiritual side of things for me. I have everything I need.
Picked JJ up and we went and bought him some good work gloves that will keep his hands warm. Its 16 degrees in the morning. It has snowed big time since this morning, non stop. It is absolutely gorgeous out. Suppose to keep getting snow til Wed morning. It just never happens like this. We need another storm to come thru and dump again so the snow on the mountain doesnt go away. They have so between last weekend and this weekend 47 inches up there at the peaks. They are opening snowbowl this Thursday. I am hopefully if weather permits going snowshoeing tomorrow. But anyway we did alittle running around and talked about all that is going on.
Its Just so sad and it just sucks but jr is going back to California. Things are in motion and there will be a court date. They will probably wait to transfer him after he gets out of school for the holidays. JJ is so done. I told him it had to break his heart that things turned out like this but he can still be proud that he tried. This kid will probably get in trouble in California and at this point what does it matter he will be in trouble here and or there. I will be surprized if he graduates high school. He needs all the encouragement he needs.
I am just so happy that I am home in my jammies. Looking at my lights. I need to get busy on my christmas cards. After reading biker's blog, I need to get it in gear on the cards. Dont have alot of gifts to buy since not exchancing gifts much. I know I will at lease have a gift from my mom and dad to open on Christmas day and you know what thats find. I am going to work early and then spending the evening w/ JJ. Probably here if jr is in cali already. Which is what is important to me is the time spent together. Its not about the bling bling and things, its about being w/ the ones you love and making sure the ones you cant be with, know how much you care about them. This year is about the spiritual side of things for me. I have everything I need.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Terrible Terrible
Well jr did it again. Got arrested w/ several other kids in a stolen car. He violated his probation and now when the probation officer finds out he will most likely going to back to juvi for possibly 30 days. This kid is not taking responsibilty for his choice to be out past his curfew. JJ is sending him back to his mom's as long as the courts approve which they said in the past they could do. He is being terrible right now to JJ. This kid is headed down the path to prison as an adult. JJ is barely keeping his head above water and feels so overwhelmed. Work is slow due to this time of the year. He doesnt know if he can make it here this winter in the cold. He has a job on Tuesday and it will be freezing cold out. In the teens. My heart just aches for him.
I did tell him that he needs to do what he has to do if that means moving back to Cali to get back on his feet so be it. I will be sad but have come to the understanding if it means its for the best then so be it. It will just mean lots of road trips. Poor guy. He really is such a good person and has such a kind heart and he is not selfish by any means. He is so giving of what he has even if he does not have much. He defiately has some thinking to do about what his future will be. I do know that we will still be in each other's life. The sacrifice will be worth it all for the end result.
Tomorrow will be interesting for sure. You know I still have a peace in my heart.
Oh my neighbor P came by and she brought over to me this really yummy desert wine, home made peanut brittle and homemade bread. Just for bringing in her mail. She loved the new curtains in the livingroom and my bathroom. She absolutely loves my bathroom. Me too!!! Its gorgeous. I am truely blessed to have all the people in my life, close and far. God loves me!
I did tell him that he needs to do what he has to do if that means moving back to Cali to get back on his feet so be it. I will be sad but have come to the understanding if it means its for the best then so be it. It will just mean lots of road trips. Poor guy. He really is such a good person and has such a kind heart and he is not selfish by any means. He is so giving of what he has even if he does not have much. He defiately has some thinking to do about what his future will be. I do know that we will still be in each other's life. The sacrifice will be worth it all for the end result.
Tomorrow will be interesting for sure. You know I still have a peace in my heart.
Oh my neighbor P came by and she brought over to me this really yummy desert wine, home made peanut brittle and homemade bread. Just for bringing in her mail. She loved the new curtains in the livingroom and my bathroom. She absolutely loves my bathroom. Me too!!! Its gorgeous. I am truely blessed to have all the people in my life, close and far. God loves me!
sunday morning!
I always say it but I love waking up in my home on Sunday morning. I bought french roast coffee beans to be grinded and did that and made me coffee, got my sunday paper out of the drive way as I bundled up and walked thru the snow to get it. It is absolutely gorgeous out w/ all the snow. The pine trees and bushes have snow on them. The mountain is so white. I just got done talking to Ellen and snowshoeing is calling our name.
I feel such a peace in my heart this morning. I enjoyed my evening so much. I watched movies and had a 7&7 and ate pizza. I cozied up on my couch in my jammies. I finally went to bed and started reading a book by nora roberts, the gift. I am finding that reading before I sleep is really helping me sleep better. I had clean sheets that are cooler and not egygian cotton and a clean comforter. I slept so hard. My head does feel better today after doing the nettie pot 3 times last nite and this morning. It really works. I looked at all the sales papers. Out of all the days of the week I love the Sunday paper.
I only talk to JJ a couple of times when he would call me. I was so happy for him to be at the concert. He had a great time and only spent $5.00 total. He made money.
He needed a break.
I am going to enjoy my day and get more stuff done around here. I am going to have my lights on and my fiber optic tree lite up. I might look at more of my decorations and have alittle more out.
Dallas is playing but not doing very well at this moment. They will turn it around, they almost always do.
I feel such a peace in my heart this morning. I enjoyed my evening so much. I watched movies and had a 7&7 and ate pizza. I cozied up on my couch in my jammies. I finally went to bed and started reading a book by nora roberts, the gift. I am finding that reading before I sleep is really helping me sleep better. I had clean sheets that are cooler and not egygian cotton and a clean comforter. I slept so hard. My head does feel better today after doing the nettie pot 3 times last nite and this morning. It really works. I looked at all the sales papers. Out of all the days of the week I love the Sunday paper.
I only talk to JJ a couple of times when he would call me. I was so happy for him to be at the concert. He had a great time and only spent $5.00 total. He made money.
He needed a break.
I am going to enjoy my day and get more stuff done around here. I am going to have my lights on and my fiber optic tree lite up. I might look at more of my decorations and have alittle more out.
Dallas is playing but not doing very well at this moment. They will turn it around, they almost always do.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Snow Snow Snow
Well it has been snowing since this morning and sticking. It is so awesome. The sun was out and the mountain was white white white. Then it started snowing. I love it.
I have had an interesting morning. I got up, put my comforter in the wash machine, and start getting ready for the day. As I am getting dressed to go work out I get a call from JJ. He had bought tickets for a concert down in Tempe originally and was going to surprise me, but he sold them to this guy in phoenix for the money. He had told me about it not to long ago. So this guy calls him and says his girlfriend doesnt want to go so he would give JJ so much money and ask if JJ would go w/ him. He could stay at his place and he would buy him beers. I was pissed. I told him I was mad, about it, and that it was suppose to be about us, and to save money,etc. I told him it hurt my feelings. I said I am sorry I am acting like that but again it hurt my feelings. I have to hand it to this guy of mine. He didnt react, he didnt get mad, or have an attitude. He tells me he understands why it made me mad.
We decide to meet after my workout and go out to breakfast. Well of course, I have time to cool down and work out and think about it. So I go to work out and Shere is there and I am catching her up on the news about Terry. She couldnt understand why I would wish this chick luck if Terry hurt himself. She didnt know what I went thru at that time, so I went into alittle of what happen and how aweful and how that was the lowest time of my life. She tells me how sorry she was, she had no idea. Then she proceeds to tell me that last year oh in March or April when her and her husband were looking for rings to get married who came walking into the jewlery shop, sorry spelling, but Melanie and Terry looking at rings. We just separated in Jan mine you. So he lied to everyone about his relationship that were just friends. She never spoke to him and they made eye contact. She was so upset but her husband Mikey told her dont tell Letera she has been hurt enough by him. So she never mentioned it. I am so blown away by everything and at the same time I called it all and knew everything that was going on to a point. He is nothing but a low life. Enough of that so after class I was feeling good and went over to JJ's and laid down w/ him and we just talked. He said if I wanted, him and I would go to the concert as planned and just come back up after. I was very touched by him in so many ways. He cares so much about me and how I feel. I cant believe I was so blessed by God to bring this man into my life. Its like my reward after all the crap I went thru.
For those of you who dont know Az, I 17 is an interesting interstate. It starts in Phoenix and ends in Flagstaff or visa versa. Alot of tractor trailers and traffic are on this road, it is curvy curvy curvy, and you are on a constant climb up and down. We get alot of interesting crazy accidents off of I 17 at the hospital. So because of what I have seen in my time here I dont like to be on I 17 or I 40 in bad weather. And you drop in major elevations, you go from 7,000ft to 2,000ft. My head is killing me today from my sinuses and I know going thru elevations it will fuck w/ me bad and my ears wont clear. been there, done it, have the t-shirt. So I told him since he can use his work card for gas, he will made $50.00, he will get to see Sammy, and not have to pay for a hotel. Its his absolute favorite band ever. We enjoyed some time together while Jr was sleeping and went to breakfast and hung out for alittle while. So I am leaving and who do I see on the corner but Terry and several other bikers. They have something going on w/ the american legions, its a walk around town to raise money for kids but you basically go around and drink the whole day. What a roller coaster weekend but now its over. Thank god.
I am for sure going to counseling to work on this traumatic episode that happend to me and deal w/ it so that maybe it wont come up at different times in my life. Crazy.
Went and got me a netti pot for my sinuses. For those of you who have sinus problems it has been recommended time and time again to use it. It looks like a Jeanie pot but you fill it up w/ the salt they provide and lukewarm water. You tilt your head down and to the side and put the spout in your nose and let the water run thru and it comes out your other nostril. It is the wierdest feeling as it is filling up and about to come out. It feels like when you go swimming and get water up your nose and you want to blow it out, well you cant move, you just breathe thru your mouth. Well it turned out to be quite refreshing. Its is soothing and gives your sinuses some moisture. Can do it every 2 hours.
Well it stopped snowing for the time being. It is absolutely beautiful. Depending on the weather tomorrow I am going snowshoeing outside my front door to the cinder hills. Oh my god I cant wait. It will be so awesome. Love Love Love it.
On to put clean sheets on my bed, a clean comforter, and watch a movie. Oh spoke to soon, it started again. I love it. It just makes me smile so much. Brings joy to my heart.
I do hope all are having a great weekend and enjoying the holidays. Because I am and will continue to do it! Keep warm and enjoy!
I have had an interesting morning. I got up, put my comforter in the wash machine, and start getting ready for the day. As I am getting dressed to go work out I get a call from JJ. He had bought tickets for a concert down in Tempe originally and was going to surprise me, but he sold them to this guy in phoenix for the money. He had told me about it not to long ago. So this guy calls him and says his girlfriend doesnt want to go so he would give JJ so much money and ask if JJ would go w/ him. He could stay at his place and he would buy him beers. I was pissed. I told him I was mad, about it, and that it was suppose to be about us, and to save money,etc. I told him it hurt my feelings. I said I am sorry I am acting like that but again it hurt my feelings. I have to hand it to this guy of mine. He didnt react, he didnt get mad, or have an attitude. He tells me he understands why it made me mad.
We decide to meet after my workout and go out to breakfast. Well of course, I have time to cool down and work out and think about it. So I go to work out and Shere is there and I am catching her up on the news about Terry. She couldnt understand why I would wish this chick luck if Terry hurt himself. She didnt know what I went thru at that time, so I went into alittle of what happen and how aweful and how that was the lowest time of my life. She tells me how sorry she was, she had no idea. Then she proceeds to tell me that last year oh in March or April when her and her husband were looking for rings to get married who came walking into the jewlery shop, sorry spelling, but Melanie and Terry looking at rings. We just separated in Jan mine you. So he lied to everyone about his relationship that were just friends. She never spoke to him and they made eye contact. She was so upset but her husband Mikey told her dont tell Letera she has been hurt enough by him. So she never mentioned it. I am so blown away by everything and at the same time I called it all and knew everything that was going on to a point. He is nothing but a low life. Enough of that so after class I was feeling good and went over to JJ's and laid down w/ him and we just talked. He said if I wanted, him and I would go to the concert as planned and just come back up after. I was very touched by him in so many ways. He cares so much about me and how I feel. I cant believe I was so blessed by God to bring this man into my life. Its like my reward after all the crap I went thru.
For those of you who dont know Az, I 17 is an interesting interstate. It starts in Phoenix and ends in Flagstaff or visa versa. Alot of tractor trailers and traffic are on this road, it is curvy curvy curvy, and you are on a constant climb up and down. We get alot of interesting crazy accidents off of I 17 at the hospital. So because of what I have seen in my time here I dont like to be on I 17 or I 40 in bad weather. And you drop in major elevations, you go from 7,000ft to 2,000ft. My head is killing me today from my sinuses and I know going thru elevations it will fuck w/ me bad and my ears wont clear. been there, done it, have the t-shirt. So I told him since he can use his work card for gas, he will made $50.00, he will get to see Sammy, and not have to pay for a hotel. Its his absolute favorite band ever. We enjoyed some time together while Jr was sleeping and went to breakfast and hung out for alittle while. So I am leaving and who do I see on the corner but Terry and several other bikers. They have something going on w/ the american legions, its a walk around town to raise money for kids but you basically go around and drink the whole day. What a roller coaster weekend but now its over. Thank god.
I am for sure going to counseling to work on this traumatic episode that happend to me and deal w/ it so that maybe it wont come up at different times in my life. Crazy.
Went and got me a netti pot for my sinuses. For those of you who have sinus problems it has been recommended time and time again to use it. It looks like a Jeanie pot but you fill it up w/ the salt they provide and lukewarm water. You tilt your head down and to the side and put the spout in your nose and let the water run thru and it comes out your other nostril. It is the wierdest feeling as it is filling up and about to come out. It feels like when you go swimming and get water up your nose and you want to blow it out, well you cant move, you just breathe thru your mouth. Well it turned out to be quite refreshing. Its is soothing and gives your sinuses some moisture. Can do it every 2 hours.
Well it stopped snowing for the time being. It is absolutely beautiful. Depending on the weather tomorrow I am going snowshoeing outside my front door to the cinder hills. Oh my god I cant wait. It will be so awesome. Love Love Love it.
On to put clean sheets on my bed, a clean comforter, and watch a movie. Oh spoke to soon, it started again. I love it. It just makes me smile so much. Brings joy to my heart.
I do hope all are having a great weekend and enjoying the holidays. Because I am and will continue to do it! Keep warm and enjoy!
Friday, December 7, 2007
Several things!
Well to start out w/ I get a call and I hope you are all sitting down but Terry is getting married Jan 5. He has met his soul mate. What ever. Kurt had to talk to him concerning taxes on their business and they had to prove they didnt do business this year and he proceeds to tell him this piece of news. He has been dating her a year. Okay so a year, that is interesting considering he was w/ Melonie at this time last year and apparently she had a ring and they went to meet each other's parents. Hm. Then they break up and she moves away in June. He proceeds to say they have been living together for 3 months and she drives a shuttle bus up at the grand canyon. They are buying a trailer up there. Because they love it so much up there. She drives a harley also. She is the skant that Dido told me about. Kurt asked him what the hell is he getting married for is he a fucking idiot. So he called Jen and Jen called me w/ the news. He said yea tell her what a stupid idiot he is.
I am so blowed away. He wanted out of this marriage because he didnt want to be married anymore and now this is #2. in a year. I started to say I hope he but I caught myself because I dont want bad Karma so I said when and if he ever gets in an accident she has no clue what she is in for. I was talking to JJ and was talking about this and How he made me feel like dirt and the names he called me, etc. Thats why I told him when he was joking around and made a comment to me that I realized why it bothered me because Terry use to say aweful stuff to me. I had tears in my eyes like post stress traumatic syndrome. Because it was so traumatic. Man when I think back its amazing how many traumatic events I have had in my life from being a kid to now. I have always had to be the strong one, always. Dido suggested that I go to counseling. I will have 6 free visits next year. I dont have anymore this year because I gave them all to jr. I think that I am going to do it just for the heck of it, to get rid of some of this aweful stuff and comes to terms w/ it. After all these years of crap that I have been thru I deserve to try to work thru it all and this might be the answer.
I did go to my GYN doc and we discussed what I am going thru. He said since my periods are not irregular that my levels are fine. Hmmmmmmmm. He said right before your period your levels are low and so it messes w/ your serotonin levels, brain hormones and thats why you have mood swings. He wont put me on hormone treatment but he referred me to a naturalist. So on Monday I will make an appt with her. He said she is very good w/ herbal remedies. He thought that would help me alot. He said Letera when you have alot of stress in your life it is going to mess w/ everything. He said I was very healthy. He did order labs and so I will get that done next week.
Thats why this news about Terry is amazing because I dont understand how someone can move on like that and make that kind of commitment so quick. And the other amazing thing is I cant imagine getting married any time soon. Even if JJ and I stay together and move back in together I wont say I do for a long time.
I just got off the phone w/ JJ and I talked to him somemore about this. He said that is why he didnt want to be married anymore to you because he wouldnt get caught doing things anymore. Its all fresh and good now but it wont last. He is so good for me. He gets me. I told him the same thing I just said and he totally understands why I feel that way. He is someone good to talk to about stuff. You know we may be 12 years apart but its not even a thought. We are just on the same level in so many ways. Its so nice that he sacrifies for me. He moved here to be w/ me, he stays here because of me, and he continues to want to stay here to be w/ me. He is so considerate of me and my feelings. He is so understanding of why I feel the way I do and where it comes from. How did I get so blessed. Karma for sure and being a good person.
On a good note, the hospital did their yearly holiday luncheon. I mean they go all out. To start w/ you have a choice of several different salads. Huge deliscious sweet Strawberries and pineapple w/ chocolate to dip them in. Then on to the hot stuff, prime rib, chicken, homemade mash potatoes, asparugas w/ holidasse sauce, (sorry about the spelling, then a cheese and vegetable table. Huge pieces of Shrimp cocktail, then many different types of desert. They fix the cafeteria up. I cant imagine what a meal like that costs for all the employees and the physicians. Then we got a $30.00 gift certificate in the mail to use at pages of different retailers, resturants, spas, etc. And the best part is the people in charge and in management are the ones who serve us our meal, Even the CEO. Nice. That didnt happen when I worked at UMC. We didnt get shit or at lease we didnt when I worked there, it might be different now.
Well off to get ready to go to Jenni's, new name for her, for a couple of 7&7's and girl talk. She is having a hard time w/ her ex and her boyfriend is feeling the effects of it all. He is going downtown to listen to music and be w/ the guys.
The weather here has been windy, 60 to 80 hour a mile guss of wind, rain which means lots of snow on the mountain, woohoo. We are suppose to get more, but we will see! I am putting my snowshoes in the car this weekend and I am going snowshoeing soon. I am going to go workout in the morning. Then get to spend time w/ my honey! Hope all have a great weekend!
I am so blowed away. He wanted out of this marriage because he didnt want to be married anymore and now this is #2. in a year. I started to say I hope he but I caught myself because I dont want bad Karma so I said when and if he ever gets in an accident she has no clue what she is in for. I was talking to JJ and was talking about this and How he made me feel like dirt and the names he called me, etc. Thats why I told him when he was joking around and made a comment to me that I realized why it bothered me because Terry use to say aweful stuff to me. I had tears in my eyes like post stress traumatic syndrome. Because it was so traumatic. Man when I think back its amazing how many traumatic events I have had in my life from being a kid to now. I have always had to be the strong one, always. Dido suggested that I go to counseling. I will have 6 free visits next year. I dont have anymore this year because I gave them all to jr. I think that I am going to do it just for the heck of it, to get rid of some of this aweful stuff and comes to terms w/ it. After all these years of crap that I have been thru I deserve to try to work thru it all and this might be the answer.
I did go to my GYN doc and we discussed what I am going thru. He said since my periods are not irregular that my levels are fine. Hmmmmmmmm. He said right before your period your levels are low and so it messes w/ your serotonin levels, brain hormones and thats why you have mood swings. He wont put me on hormone treatment but he referred me to a naturalist. So on Monday I will make an appt with her. He said she is very good w/ herbal remedies. He thought that would help me alot. He said Letera when you have alot of stress in your life it is going to mess w/ everything. He said I was very healthy. He did order labs and so I will get that done next week.
Thats why this news about Terry is amazing because I dont understand how someone can move on like that and make that kind of commitment so quick. And the other amazing thing is I cant imagine getting married any time soon. Even if JJ and I stay together and move back in together I wont say I do for a long time.
I just got off the phone w/ JJ and I talked to him somemore about this. He said that is why he didnt want to be married anymore to you because he wouldnt get caught doing things anymore. Its all fresh and good now but it wont last. He is so good for me. He gets me. I told him the same thing I just said and he totally understands why I feel that way. He is someone good to talk to about stuff. You know we may be 12 years apart but its not even a thought. We are just on the same level in so many ways. Its so nice that he sacrifies for me. He moved here to be w/ me, he stays here because of me, and he continues to want to stay here to be w/ me. He is so considerate of me and my feelings. He is so understanding of why I feel the way I do and where it comes from. How did I get so blessed. Karma for sure and being a good person.
On a good note, the hospital did their yearly holiday luncheon. I mean they go all out. To start w/ you have a choice of several different salads. Huge deliscious sweet Strawberries and pineapple w/ chocolate to dip them in. Then on to the hot stuff, prime rib, chicken, homemade mash potatoes, asparugas w/ holidasse sauce, (sorry about the spelling, then a cheese and vegetable table. Huge pieces of Shrimp cocktail, then many different types of desert. They fix the cafeteria up. I cant imagine what a meal like that costs for all the employees and the physicians. Then we got a $30.00 gift certificate in the mail to use at pages of different retailers, resturants, spas, etc. And the best part is the people in charge and in management are the ones who serve us our meal, Even the CEO. Nice. That didnt happen when I worked at UMC. We didnt get shit or at lease we didnt when I worked there, it might be different now.
Well off to get ready to go to Jenni's, new name for her, for a couple of 7&7's and girl talk. She is having a hard time w/ her ex and her boyfriend is feeling the effects of it all. He is going downtown to listen to music and be w/ the guys.
The weather here has been windy, 60 to 80 hour a mile guss of wind, rain which means lots of snow on the mountain, woohoo. We are suppose to get more, but we will see! I am putting my snowshoes in the car this weekend and I am going snowshoeing soon. I am going to go workout in the morning. Then get to spend time w/ my honey! Hope all have a great weekend!
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
freeing!
I am having some freeing moments. I went thru my piles of mail on the table and counter and threw away, put in a pile to shred, good for packing and mailing christmas presents, and putting bills to be paid in the office. I also cleaned off my table and put my christmas tablecloth down. It looks nice. I also started going thru my closet in the hallway and added more to the pile to be donated. I am far from done but at lease I am making some progress.
Didnt dust or vacumn, need to check my belt, not picking up. wierd. But I feel good about what I have done.
I slept all night til 6. unlike me. I feel rested. nice.
Today is Jr's birthday. He turns 16. To bad its not 18. I am going to get him several movie tickets and a card. JJ feels bad that he doesnt have several things for him to open. I dont get off til 5:30 so I am going to tell him to take jr to dinner and I will meet up w/ him at the apartment. He doesnt want to go to dinner past that because he will be getting up at 2am for work. I will just meet him for the cake and to give him my gift. It bothers me that I want to go all out for the girls but not him. Hmmmmmmmmm wonder why that is. Oh well so is life.
I go to the GYN doc tomorrow and will be having a talk about the changes of menapause I am going thru. After watching Dr Oz on Oprah, I need to have labs done. Get back on some vitamins. I started taking my Calcium w/ magnesium and vit D. I was amazed at how those last 2 things are huge in what it does for your body. Citrus helps you keep your blood pressure down. I also watched the comedian's wife who has a book out on delisciously deceptive. She purees vegetables and addes them to the foods. It was mainly about kids but I thought her recipes are low fat and you are getting your vegies plus it makes your food that you cook moist. Pretty good. BikerCandy I will ask him about the HRT you mentioned. Something you said though bother me, Violent mood swings. I guess I dont think of violent in describing me. I just bottom out when I have my melt downs and cry. I dont get angry, maybe I should. Another girl was talking about the same thing. She said her hormones just bottomed out and she just cried and cried for days. Menapause sucks if you ask me. She is adding some things to her diet such as Maca. But her husband bought her a puppy. She was so funny about this dog. She feels more stressed out over this dog instead of happy. Dont need a puppy. No way. She is the same age as me. Alot of girls I work w/ that are going thru menapause are going thru or have gone thru the same things I am going thru. Its like you cant control your emotions. That parts sucks. But I am for sure going to talk to him about what I can do. I am already exercising, not daily like they say, but at lease several times a week. Being a woman sucks sometimes.
Well off to the shower.
Hope all are having a good holiday season!
Didnt dust or vacumn, need to check my belt, not picking up. wierd. But I feel good about what I have done.
I slept all night til 6. unlike me. I feel rested. nice.
Today is Jr's birthday. He turns 16. To bad its not 18. I am going to get him several movie tickets and a card. JJ feels bad that he doesnt have several things for him to open. I dont get off til 5:30 so I am going to tell him to take jr to dinner and I will meet up w/ him at the apartment. He doesnt want to go to dinner past that because he will be getting up at 2am for work. I will just meet him for the cake and to give him my gift. It bothers me that I want to go all out for the girls but not him. Hmmmmmmmmm wonder why that is. Oh well so is life.
I go to the GYN doc tomorrow and will be having a talk about the changes of menapause I am going thru. After watching Dr Oz on Oprah, I need to have labs done. Get back on some vitamins. I started taking my Calcium w/ magnesium and vit D. I was amazed at how those last 2 things are huge in what it does for your body. Citrus helps you keep your blood pressure down. I also watched the comedian's wife who has a book out on delisciously deceptive. She purees vegetables and addes them to the foods. It was mainly about kids but I thought her recipes are low fat and you are getting your vegies plus it makes your food that you cook moist. Pretty good. BikerCandy I will ask him about the HRT you mentioned. Something you said though bother me, Violent mood swings. I guess I dont think of violent in describing me. I just bottom out when I have my melt downs and cry. I dont get angry, maybe I should. Another girl was talking about the same thing. She said her hormones just bottomed out and she just cried and cried for days. Menapause sucks if you ask me. She is adding some things to her diet such as Maca. But her husband bought her a puppy. She was so funny about this dog. She feels more stressed out over this dog instead of happy. Dont need a puppy. No way. She is the same age as me. Alot of girls I work w/ that are going thru menapause are going thru or have gone thru the same things I am going thru. Its like you cant control your emotions. That parts sucks. But I am for sure going to talk to him about what I can do. I am already exercising, not daily like they say, but at lease several times a week. Being a woman sucks sometimes.
Well off to the shower.
Hope all are having a good holiday season!
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Day Off!
Had a good day at work yesterday. We are now charting surgi net out of power chart. It is so much better. Don't have to log into both and go back and forth. Its interesting we can log into surginet and it comes up power chart but if we log into power chart surginet is not there. So we are alot happier w/ charting now. Even the OR. It just makes life easier.
I did get off alittle early yesterday so I could have a little afternoon delight w/ JJ before Jr got home. It was actually pretty funny. I am calling him when I was getting off to tell him I was coming over and to get ready. I felt so much better after. Dr. Northrup who wrote the wisdom of menopause said on the show and in her book, got to have sex. Its a must and boy was she ever so right. It helps w/ your hormone levels. It brings you joy. Got to do stuff that produces joy what ever that is. Dido really thinks my hormones are out of wack and I am incline to agree w/ her but damn I dont want to go on HRT. She is on them and she has had 8 periods in 2 months. Fuck that. I am now 28 days apart and want to stay there. I need to look at what else I can take over the counter thats more natural. I guess vitamins for sure. I was doing so good taking them and I stopped. Will have to investigate. But amazingly I felt so much better yesterday. I did go work out and felt better also. I also made me a salad for dinner. I am trying to cut out some the carbs that I eat. Beer is the hard one but I am just not buying that. I will only drink it now if I go out.
I am going to do some cleaning today. General cleaning like dusting, vacumning, put away clothes in my room. Clear off my table and put my christmas table cloth w/ napkins so it looks more christmasy. I also have to go into work for an hour or so to work on my ect charts and then go workout. See JJ and come home.
Oh the shower was nice for the girl at work. She got anywhere from x-rated to cookware. Perfect combo. She loved the frame I got her. She didnt get any others. Actually she only got 2 of one thing and that was a coffee grinder. Someone suggested she use one for nuts. I thought that was a great idea. She loves to cook. We didnt scrapebook. I did contribute 2 things to her scrapebook. I had bought at hobby lobby in Lubbock, some beach stuff, one for a guy and one for a girl, that I was going to use for a belize scrapeboook and didnt make it. So I am glad she could use it. They are going to St Johns in the virgin islands for their honeymoon. So it will be for a great honeymoon pic. But I have to tell you guys she went online and found a place to rent. Small, cute, hottub, pool, private beach off the water. Cheap also. I thought oh that would be a great way to go. It had everything. Idea for future trips. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I have to also say Dido was so there for me on Sunday. I woke up fine and then on my way to town I had a melt down of crying. No reason except the obvious I guess. Met her at her house, used her make up, and we just talked. It helped alot. We went to Altitudes and had some yummy bloodys. They have a bloody mary bar. They give you the alcohol and you make your own. You would all love Dido. She is such an awesome person. She is so outgoing and she will tell you exactly what she thinks. She is very caring. She is so funny. She gave Elaine a kama sutra kit and an economy size of astro glide. She writes in the card Men are easy you just have to show them what you want and like. She also tells her at the shower that UTI's are a problem from honeymoons so now she wont have that problem. We were all laughing.
JJ and I have already talked about New Years eve and that we will get to see the pine cone dropping at the hotel. Its really corny but what the hell its Flagstaff. What can I say. We can walk downtown and not drive. The wedding and reception are downtown in Jan also. Drink and not drive. Perfect.
Oh I have to say all the rain in town on Friday and Sat paid off. It was nice on Sunday. The mountain was beautiful. Completely White. Snowbowl got 27 inches. Its these moments that I love living here. More of that is coming Friday thru Monday. If thats the case Snow shoeing is starting early. There you go, Something that gives me so much peace in my heart and gives me Joy. I cant wait to try out my snow shoes. I might not be Jazzercizing as much next week. Instead be outside in the woods, quiet, and so perfect. OMG I am really excited about this. Dont have to rent a hotel or drive hours. Drive 30 mins and enjoy for an hour or so and drive back. Another moment that I love living here.
Alright sorry for the rambling. Hope all have a wonderful day.
I did get off alittle early yesterday so I could have a little afternoon delight w/ JJ before Jr got home. It was actually pretty funny. I am calling him when I was getting off to tell him I was coming over and to get ready. I felt so much better after. Dr. Northrup who wrote the wisdom of menopause said on the show and in her book, got to have sex. Its a must and boy was she ever so right. It helps w/ your hormone levels. It brings you joy. Got to do stuff that produces joy what ever that is. Dido really thinks my hormones are out of wack and I am incline to agree w/ her but damn I dont want to go on HRT. She is on them and she has had 8 periods in 2 months. Fuck that. I am now 28 days apart and want to stay there. I need to look at what else I can take over the counter thats more natural. I guess vitamins for sure. I was doing so good taking them and I stopped. Will have to investigate. But amazingly I felt so much better yesterday. I did go work out and felt better also. I also made me a salad for dinner. I am trying to cut out some the carbs that I eat. Beer is the hard one but I am just not buying that. I will only drink it now if I go out.
I am going to do some cleaning today. General cleaning like dusting, vacumning, put away clothes in my room. Clear off my table and put my christmas table cloth w/ napkins so it looks more christmasy. I also have to go into work for an hour or so to work on my ect charts and then go workout. See JJ and come home.
Oh the shower was nice for the girl at work. She got anywhere from x-rated to cookware. Perfect combo. She loved the frame I got her. She didnt get any others. Actually she only got 2 of one thing and that was a coffee grinder. Someone suggested she use one for nuts. I thought that was a great idea. She loves to cook. We didnt scrapebook. I did contribute 2 things to her scrapebook. I had bought at hobby lobby in Lubbock, some beach stuff, one for a guy and one for a girl, that I was going to use for a belize scrapeboook and didnt make it. So I am glad she could use it. They are going to St Johns in the virgin islands for their honeymoon. So it will be for a great honeymoon pic. But I have to tell you guys she went online and found a place to rent. Small, cute, hottub, pool, private beach off the water. Cheap also. I thought oh that would be a great way to go. It had everything. Idea for future trips. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I have to also say Dido was so there for me on Sunday. I woke up fine and then on my way to town I had a melt down of crying. No reason except the obvious I guess. Met her at her house, used her make up, and we just talked. It helped alot. We went to Altitudes and had some yummy bloodys. They have a bloody mary bar. They give you the alcohol and you make your own. You would all love Dido. She is such an awesome person. She is so outgoing and she will tell you exactly what she thinks. She is very caring. She is so funny. She gave Elaine a kama sutra kit and an economy size of astro glide. She writes in the card Men are easy you just have to show them what you want and like. She also tells her at the shower that UTI's are a problem from honeymoons so now she wont have that problem. We were all laughing.
JJ and I have already talked about New Years eve and that we will get to see the pine cone dropping at the hotel. Its really corny but what the hell its Flagstaff. What can I say. We can walk downtown and not drive. The wedding and reception are downtown in Jan also. Drink and not drive. Perfect.
Oh I have to say all the rain in town on Friday and Sat paid off. It was nice on Sunday. The mountain was beautiful. Completely White. Snowbowl got 27 inches. Its these moments that I love living here. More of that is coming Friday thru Monday. If thats the case Snow shoeing is starting early. There you go, Something that gives me so much peace in my heart and gives me Joy. I cant wait to try out my snow shoes. I might not be Jazzercizing as much next week. Instead be outside in the woods, quiet, and so perfect. OMG I am really excited about this. Dont have to rent a hotel or drive hours. Drive 30 mins and enjoy for an hour or so and drive back. Another moment that I love living here.
Alright sorry for the rambling. Hope all have a wonderful day.
Saturday, December 1, 2007
down in the dumps
I started out my day good. Did go workout. Good Workout. Glad I did that. Met up w/ JJ and we went to look for a desk for the jr for the computer that his dad gave them. JJ has a lap top but he also plans on using the computer to download music for himself. He wants to keep jr off his lap top. So went to the salvation army and found a small but usable desk for $15.00. We went and checked out the fabric but decided to wait a couple of weeks when he has the cash to buy all 3 and then we will just take the time to make all 3 in one day.
It was so cold, windy, and wet. Thank God for the moisture but I didnt want to drive around alot. So we both were trying to save gas and so he went on to his place and I went to mine. I felt so sad and just crying because I wanted more alone time w/ him. I am not even pms'ing. After talking w/ Ellen tonight I finally figured out that ever since he told me about his dad its like I have a dark cloud over me and I cant shake it. I was just crying the other nite at his place after we got home from the game and couldnt tell him what was wrong. So I called him tonight mind you we have only been on the phone many times talking today but I told him why I was feeling this way. He said its not going to happen since his dad has arthritis. His dad worked today. I told him I would really just miss him so bad. He said me too. We both feel the same way about each other. I told him I will shake this since he isn't leaving any time soon. I came home and did nothing but lay on the couch and watch tivo. I put chicken thighs in the crock pot for dinner. They came out good.
So tomorrow after I get up and have my coffee and wake up I will head into town earlier to go by target and michaels. I have to pick up some stuff to scrape book at this wedding shower that Dido and I are going to for the girl at work. I will head over to JJ's and hang out w/ him before I head over to Dido's. Have some time w/ him.
Well off to watch alittle more tv and then go to bed. Get rest. It usually helps alot.
It was so cold, windy, and wet. Thank God for the moisture but I didnt want to drive around alot. So we both were trying to save gas and so he went on to his place and I went to mine. I felt so sad and just crying because I wanted more alone time w/ him. I am not even pms'ing. After talking w/ Ellen tonight I finally figured out that ever since he told me about his dad its like I have a dark cloud over me and I cant shake it. I was just crying the other nite at his place after we got home from the game and couldnt tell him what was wrong. So I called him tonight mind you we have only been on the phone many times talking today but I told him why I was feeling this way. He said its not going to happen since his dad has arthritis. His dad worked today. I told him I would really just miss him so bad. He said me too. We both feel the same way about each other. I told him I will shake this since he isn't leaving any time soon. I came home and did nothing but lay on the couch and watch tivo. I put chicken thighs in the crock pot for dinner. They came out good.
So tomorrow after I get up and have my coffee and wake up I will head into town earlier to go by target and michaels. I have to pick up some stuff to scrape book at this wedding shower that Dido and I are going to for the girl at work. I will head over to JJ's and hang out w/ him before I head over to Dido's. Have some time w/ him.
Well off to watch alittle more tv and then go to bed. Get rest. It usually helps alot.
Its raining!
It has been raining since yesterday morning. It is so nice to have moisture again. Its been way to long. I truely cant tell you the last time we got moisture. We are suppose to get snow today and then everything clears up by tonight. I want it to just snow til Monday. That would be so incredible.
I was so tired yesterday after staying up watching the game. It was late when we went to sleep. I dont sleep well over at JJ's place. For one thing when we go out he doesnt want to go right to sleep. He wants to stay up and listen to music. I can hear his music and so it takes me awhile to fall asleep. Then I can hear the train in town. Just to much noise. I am so use to dark, quiet, peacefulness. The dogs sleep I sleep. Crazy.
I am going to go work out this morning. I will feel better doing that for sure. I have to play nurse to JJ because his right ear must have a lot of crap in it because he can't hear out of it. So I am bringing him hydrogen peroxide before my workout. After wards I am getting w/ JJ to go get the fleece material for the 1st blanket. We will come back here to make it since I have a big long table to do it. He is going to help me make it so its from both of us. We might just hang out for alittle while and then he will just head back to his house. So I will just be home alone w/ the dogs. I hate that we cant spend more time together but w/ the jr and me having my dogs I dont want to leave them alone to much. And he has to be there for the jr. Crazy Crazy.
At lease I have a little while w/ him and we will enjoy our time together.
Tomorrow is a wedding shower for a girl at work. Dido and I are going together. Her wedding is next month. The parents are coming in for the shower. So we get to meet the moms. I guess we are scrapbooking as a surprize for her.
Well off to get dressed and get going. Tomorrow I dont have to get up to go anywhere early. Nice.
I was so tired yesterday after staying up watching the game. It was late when we went to sleep. I dont sleep well over at JJ's place. For one thing when we go out he doesnt want to go right to sleep. He wants to stay up and listen to music. I can hear his music and so it takes me awhile to fall asleep. Then I can hear the train in town. Just to much noise. I am so use to dark, quiet, peacefulness. The dogs sleep I sleep. Crazy.
I am going to go work out this morning. I will feel better doing that for sure. I have to play nurse to JJ because his right ear must have a lot of crap in it because he can't hear out of it. So I am bringing him hydrogen peroxide before my workout. After wards I am getting w/ JJ to go get the fleece material for the 1st blanket. We will come back here to make it since I have a big long table to do it. He is going to help me make it so its from both of us. We might just hang out for alittle while and then he will just head back to his house. So I will just be home alone w/ the dogs. I hate that we cant spend more time together but w/ the jr and me having my dogs I dont want to leave them alone to much. And he has to be there for the jr. Crazy Crazy.
At lease I have a little while w/ him and we will enjoy our time together.
Tomorrow is a wedding shower for a girl at work. Dido and I are going together. Her wedding is next month. The parents are coming in for the shower. So we get to meet the moms. I guess we are scrapbooking as a surprize for her.
Well off to get dressed and get going. Tomorrow I dont have to get up to go anywhere early. Nice.
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