I am absolutely exhausted today. My patient didnt come out til 4:15am and then I took him to his room by 5:30am. I left work and left them a note I wouldnt be in til 9am. So I thought I would go home and catch an hours sleep and then get up. I got home and was taking my trash can out to the street when the wind, which is blowing so damn hard, picked up this big plastic heavy trashcan and fell to the ground. Part of the trash blew away and the rest I got back in the can. So I then attempt to take the trash can to the street and the lid gets blown up and it hits me upside the right side of my head and face. It hurt so bad. I was cursing the wind and crying at the same time, it hurt so bad. My right side of my face is swollen, my jaw is sore, and it hurts to chew. I will defiately have a bruise on cheek bone.
So I proceeded to go in and get a little nap and was just so tired and hurting. I got dressed and there was a traffic jam after I leave my area and get on the main road. They are replacing the traffic light pole on one of the corners. I left my house at 8:15 and didnt get past this part of the road til 8:45. It normally takes me 30mins to get to the hospital from my house. I did go thru the drive thru and got Dido and I coffee. Skinny mocha, should have told them sugar free also, too sweet.
But anyway, I got to work, got a patient and they sent me home and hour and 1/2 later. Thank god. I decided I am not a mom. A mom can do what they have to and they go on hardly any sleep. I am a wimp. Tonight is time for an ambien and sleep to feel like new tomorrow.
I do stop at the cvs and get a couple of cards, mother's day card, birthday card for Val, and a thank you card from Dido and I to Val and her husband for letting us stay w/ them. I talk to Val today and we are both so damn excited about seeing each other.
Dido and I are getting together tomorrow after work at her place to finalize our plans. I need to go to the post office while I wait on her to get done w/ work and her doc appt. Then I will come home and work on the packing and clothes situation. Caual and business attire. I will have both to wear. I defiately have that since I have shopped over the last several months for this. If I dont vacumn tonight then tomorrow for sure. Meet up w/ JJ to stay w/ him tomorrow nite. So we have time together. I did decide once he gets up at 3am I will get up and take off to my house and go back to bed til 7:30 or so and get up to get ready for my week of fun, fun, fun. I still cant believe its here and I am gone a whole week. Make my man miss me even more and me the same.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
here I sit
Got called in at 3am when I sleeping so damn good, here I sit waiting for my patient at 3:45am. I guess when I get out of here, go home, take a shower, and come back. I am so tired. I finally fell asleep and woke up an midnight due to our lovely wind. Fell asleep and boom the phone rang. Damn, almost got thru the night. I am really hoping that this patient will be out soon.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Wind
Have I mentioned how much I hate the fuckin wind. Here we go again. We get teased by 1 nice day that gives you hope to be able to work in the yard and bam its taken away.
Same for tomorrow.
So I got off and was going to come home and try to work alittle in the front of the house. And I found another nail place that takes walk ins so I could get my pedicure for my trip. I have trying to get a pedicure for weeks. But this place is on my side of town, yea for that. During the week not as busy so it will be easy to walk in. And the lady convinced me to do a manicure, which I never do. Glad I did, my nails look good. It only cost $35.00 for both. Tipped $10.00, $5.00 for each person.
Being in the nursing profession, you are not suppose to wear fake nails of any kind, holds bacteria, leads to nasty infections possible MRSA. I usually and most people I work w/ dont even put polish on due to chipping leading to holding bacteria in the nail, leading to possible infections. I am around some nasty stuff. In fact we are eventually adding another isolation room due to MRSA and VRE. Alot of this people have and are in the community and dont know it. Thats why I always wipe down the handle to the cart. Gross stuff. 2 people from infection control did a study and touched a bed that a patient had MRSA. The person who touched shook the other persons hand and then they cultured their hands and they both had MRSA. The people who are the worse about not being careful are the docs. They must think they are immuned. So warning to all, go to the doc, if he doesnt wash his hands and touches you, ask him or her to wash their hands. And whats crazy things are getting so immuned to anitbiotics due to our over use of these drugs. Crazy Crazy! Okay off my soap box.
So needless to say since I cant be outside, I am inside doing stuff. Going thru my mail for one and came across a sam's renewal bill for Terry and his new wife Vanessa. Wierd to see it in writing now. But how stupid can you be when you dont make sure your address is changed at the places you do business. I still get stuff for him. I Throw it away.
Took a nice nap this afternoon and now ready to work some more. I guess next will be vacuming. My house isnt a diaster but needs to be cleaned. I am not going to be nuts about this but just to walk in and see it somewhat clean will feel good on the return portion of my trip.
I am getting so excited about my trip to Dallas/ft worth. We are going to have such a great time. It will truely be so fun. I will miss my honey for sure.
On call tonight but feel pretty good about it. I dont have to be in til 7:30 and if I get called in, I could go in just a little bit later and get most of my hours in. I have really totally changed my attitude on so many things and I truely feel at peace. Amazing. Want to work harder and know that I am working towards something great. I know I can do what ever I set my mind to. I most of the time, 99% of the time, accomplish what I set out to do.
Again I am so blessed.
Same for tomorrow.
So I got off and was going to come home and try to work alittle in the front of the house. And I found another nail place that takes walk ins so I could get my pedicure for my trip. I have trying to get a pedicure for weeks. But this place is on my side of town, yea for that. During the week not as busy so it will be easy to walk in. And the lady convinced me to do a manicure, which I never do. Glad I did, my nails look good. It only cost $35.00 for both. Tipped $10.00, $5.00 for each person.
Being in the nursing profession, you are not suppose to wear fake nails of any kind, holds bacteria, leads to nasty infections possible MRSA. I usually and most people I work w/ dont even put polish on due to chipping leading to holding bacteria in the nail, leading to possible infections. I am around some nasty stuff. In fact we are eventually adding another isolation room due to MRSA and VRE. Alot of this people have and are in the community and dont know it. Thats why I always wipe down the handle to the cart. Gross stuff. 2 people from infection control did a study and touched a bed that a patient had MRSA. The person who touched shook the other persons hand and then they cultured their hands and they both had MRSA. The people who are the worse about not being careful are the docs. They must think they are immuned. So warning to all, go to the doc, if he doesnt wash his hands and touches you, ask him or her to wash their hands. And whats crazy things are getting so immuned to anitbiotics due to our over use of these drugs. Crazy Crazy! Okay off my soap box.
So needless to say since I cant be outside, I am inside doing stuff. Going thru my mail for one and came across a sam's renewal bill for Terry and his new wife Vanessa. Wierd to see it in writing now. But how stupid can you be when you dont make sure your address is changed at the places you do business. I still get stuff for him. I Throw it away.
Took a nice nap this afternoon and now ready to work some more. I guess next will be vacuming. My house isnt a diaster but needs to be cleaned. I am not going to be nuts about this but just to walk in and see it somewhat clean will feel good on the return portion of my trip.
I am getting so excited about my trip to Dallas/ft worth. We are going to have such a great time. It will truely be so fun. I will miss my honey for sure.
On call tonight but feel pretty good about it. I dont have to be in til 7:30 and if I get called in, I could go in just a little bit later and get most of my hours in. I have really totally changed my attitude on so many things and I truely feel at peace. Amazing. Want to work harder and know that I am working towards something great. I know I can do what ever I set my mind to. I most of the time, 99% of the time, accomplish what I set out to do.
Again I am so blessed.
Slept well
OMG I slept so good! My mattress is going to work out fine w/o anyway cushion what so ever. Woohoo. It will be cooler this June when its so hot.
Today will be a good day at work. Schedule is small so I will get my charts caught up and probably go home a little early which is good so I can get my stuff done earlier and maybe take the dogs for a walk.
Hope everyone is well and have a good day!
Today will be a good day at work. Schedule is small so I will get my charts caught up and probably go home a little early which is good so I can get my stuff done earlier and maybe take the dogs for a walk.
Hope everyone is well and have a good day!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Good Day!
Work was busy and so it made time go by quickly. Got to spend time w/ my man and we took a nap together. That helped alot. He had a meeting to go to at 4:30 and I was headed home.
So I had enough energy and came home, pull weeds, prune bushes, and watered one of my flower gardens. Need to get masks from work. My sinuses were killing me but used my nettie pot and it has helped immensely.
Heated up left overs after a beer and then proceeded to start working on the kitchen. Thought I would take a break and then go wipe the sink and toilet down in my bathroom.
My goal is to be balance on the outside and inside of my home. Have a little over a year to get this house done and I will do it. I was talking to Pam next door and we were talking about that. She gets so caught up on the outside as the weather gets nice and she blows off the inside. It takes so much work to get both done.
So tomorrow I am coming home after work to pull grass where the rock is in front of the house and to pull more weeds. Then move to the inside and vacumn and dust.
This way I can come back to a some what clean house after my trip. This will all be a good workout. I am also on Call tomorrow nite.
No Jazz this week but Yoga on Wed at 4pm. I will then work on putting away clothes to see what I have and decide what to take on my trip.
I am getting so excited about getting away. Everyone at work were just teasing me and dido about our trip and how we are going to have so much fun. They are right and work is paying for part of it. Woohoo!
Update on the jr thing. JJ took jr to the community college today to talk to someone about taking classes for his ged. I think and so do alot of people that it will be for the best if he does. Then he can work like he wants and wont be around all the kids all the time he was getting in trouble w/. This way he is not cutting classes and late all the time for classes. I hate it in one way because it is such a waste w/ how smart he really is but he is making these choices and if it is something positive in the long run then so be it. He goes in front of the judge either tomorrow or next week. We will see what happens. I am hoping for the best!
So I had enough energy and came home, pull weeds, prune bushes, and watered one of my flower gardens. Need to get masks from work. My sinuses were killing me but used my nettie pot and it has helped immensely.
Heated up left overs after a beer and then proceeded to start working on the kitchen. Thought I would take a break and then go wipe the sink and toilet down in my bathroom.
My goal is to be balance on the outside and inside of my home. Have a little over a year to get this house done and I will do it. I was talking to Pam next door and we were talking about that. She gets so caught up on the outside as the weather gets nice and she blows off the inside. It takes so much work to get both done.
So tomorrow I am coming home after work to pull grass where the rock is in front of the house and to pull more weeds. Then move to the inside and vacumn and dust.
This way I can come back to a some what clean house after my trip. This will all be a good workout. I am also on Call tomorrow nite.
No Jazz this week but Yoga on Wed at 4pm. I will then work on putting away clothes to see what I have and decide what to take on my trip.
I am getting so excited about getting away. Everyone at work were just teasing me and dido about our trip and how we are going to have so much fun. They are right and work is paying for part of it. Woohoo!
Update on the jr thing. JJ took jr to the community college today to talk to someone about taking classes for his ged. I think and so do alot of people that it will be for the best if he does. Then he can work like he wants and wont be around all the kids all the time he was getting in trouble w/. This way he is not cutting classes and late all the time for classes. I hate it in one way because it is such a waste w/ how smart he really is but he is making these choices and if it is something positive in the long run then so be it. He goes in front of the judge either tomorrow or next week. We will see what happens. I am hoping for the best!
Start of the week
Today is Monday, I never really like Mondays actually, but I have today and 3 other days to finish getting ready for my trip and havent done a damn thing. So I guess glad its only Monday.
Did the yoga class. It was an hour and 1/2. It was good. I was sweating so much and my heart rate and breathing got up there. My hands were shaking at certain times when they were just in the prayer mode in front of your heart. My favorite part was the last 15 mins when you just lay on the floor and totally relax. I could do alot of it but boy I am out of shape. So today I will walk the dog and tomorrow I am going again. They have a easy to mod class again.
Anyway, got my stuff done I said we would do like turn the mattress. My back is sore from class but not hurting. I am going to sleep in it another night to decide on the eggcrate.
My weekend was good. Really good. I feel very relaxed and happy.
Well off to get my breakfast and lunch ready to go and get on the road.
Hope all have a great Monday!
Did the yoga class. It was an hour and 1/2. It was good. I was sweating so much and my heart rate and breathing got up there. My hands were shaking at certain times when they were just in the prayer mode in front of your heart. My favorite part was the last 15 mins when you just lay on the floor and totally relax. I could do alot of it but boy I am out of shape. So today I will walk the dog and tomorrow I am going again. They have a easy to mod class again.
Anyway, got my stuff done I said we would do like turn the mattress. My back is sore from class but not hurting. I am going to sleep in it another night to decide on the eggcrate.
My weekend was good. Really good. I feel very relaxed and happy.
Well off to get my breakfast and lunch ready to go and get on the road.
Hope all have a great Monday!
Sunday, April 27, 2008
My favorite Day!
Sunday, My favorite day. I love sundays when I am off of work and dont have to drive anywhere right away and I get to enjoy my coffee.
Yesterday was a very nice day but turned out to be longer then expected. Relaxing morning getting ready. Got my car washed, and headed over to JJ's. Jr is doing good. Then we went and got breakfast at carl's jr. Note to all, if you like spicy, then get the steak and egg burito. If not, tell them no onions and no peppers. My mouth was on fire, ate part of JJ's breakfast sandwich. Headed down to phoenix to the desert ridge shopping center. Nice area but not a mall. Every store is outside but very cool look w/ misters going everywhere. We get to Dan and Busters at 2pm and the girls and their family dont get there until after 4pm. Well it turns out we go upstairs and they have all kinds of games. So we get drinks and play. I am waiting to eat dinner because I thought we would all get a table and eat together and have a cake. Nope. Very informal and the cake and gifts are today. I was kind of disappointed. The girls had a great time. Got to meet shekei's friends. But it was what it was and thats how they did their thing. So we left about 7:30 and went by some sub sandwich shop and had a sub. It was so good. Headed up the hill and got back by 10pm. We were both exhausted. JJ had the hardest time staying awake by that point. So we went to bed.
He is still sleeping and I am going to wake him up here shortly. It was so nice having time w/ him yesterday. It was just quality time to just be together and talk some but not much. We are going to have some intimate quality time together this am, like he said it has been way to long. I will also cook some breakfast and then he is going to help me turn the mattress. I need to see how the mattress feels w/o the pillow top. If to hard, then I will just go buy a new 1 1/2 to 2 inch foam mattress for now. I am going to take JJ home and go get some stuff done and then come back and water and put out new sugar water for the hummingbirds. I also want to pull some weeds if possible. Those things that come up as fallic symbols and multiply big time. Even if I only get a few at a time, maybe I can prevent them from becoming out of hand.
The wind is picking up but isnt suppose to be bad. Keep your fingers cross.
I am going to yoga at 4pm. I need it for my back. I am also hoping the matress helps.
Yesterday was a very nice day but turned out to be longer then expected. Relaxing morning getting ready. Got my car washed, and headed over to JJ's. Jr is doing good. Then we went and got breakfast at carl's jr. Note to all, if you like spicy, then get the steak and egg burito. If not, tell them no onions and no peppers. My mouth was on fire, ate part of JJ's breakfast sandwich. Headed down to phoenix to the desert ridge shopping center. Nice area but not a mall. Every store is outside but very cool look w/ misters going everywhere. We get to Dan and Busters at 2pm and the girls and their family dont get there until after 4pm. Well it turns out we go upstairs and they have all kinds of games. So we get drinks and play. I am waiting to eat dinner because I thought we would all get a table and eat together and have a cake. Nope. Very informal and the cake and gifts are today. I was kind of disappointed. The girls had a great time. Got to meet shekei's friends. But it was what it was and thats how they did their thing. So we left about 7:30 and went by some sub sandwich shop and had a sub. It was so good. Headed up the hill and got back by 10pm. We were both exhausted. JJ had the hardest time staying awake by that point. So we went to bed.
He is still sleeping and I am going to wake him up here shortly. It was so nice having time w/ him yesterday. It was just quality time to just be together and talk some but not much. We are going to have some intimate quality time together this am, like he said it has been way to long. I will also cook some breakfast and then he is going to help me turn the mattress. I need to see how the mattress feels w/o the pillow top. If to hard, then I will just go buy a new 1 1/2 to 2 inch foam mattress for now. I am going to take JJ home and go get some stuff done and then come back and water and put out new sugar water for the hummingbirds. I also want to pull some weeds if possible. Those things that come up as fallic symbols and multiply big time. Even if I only get a few at a time, maybe I can prevent them from becoming out of hand.
The wind is picking up but isnt suppose to be bad. Keep your fingers cross.
I am going to yoga at 4pm. I need it for my back. I am also hoping the matress helps.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Happy Birthday Shekei
Happy birthday to you Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday Dear Shekei, Happy Birthday to you. Getting ready to sing happy birthday later. lol
Her party is at 3 at some place called D&B, there are names for the letters but I only remember the D&B. Its a resturant and game place for children and adults. I am excited about going there. But what I am truely excited about is spending time w/ my man today. I have missed him something aweful. Jr isnt going because he is working from 1pm to 10 or 11pm. W/ him, he wont be up early and he will get up just in time to get ready and go to work. We are coming back tonight.
JJ is talking about spending the night w/ me so I am not asking its his decision on what he does. But he is helping me turn my mattress tomorrow and put the dishwasher back together now that we know it wont leak anymore. So that will help me alot.
I did get off work, couldnt get a pedi, so I headed towards my side of town and decided to stop for a beer or 2. No matter when I decide to go that guy Billy is there. Next door to the bar is this barbeque place that does smoked barbeque brisket sandwiches. So I decided to eat an early dinner and got a sandwich, cole slaw, and their smoked potatoe salad. OMG, it was so good. I loved their potatoe salad. Yummy. I wanted more of just that. But the sandwich was so good. So at lease now there is a barbeque place I can go to for a quick to go meal and get a beer also. You can order it at the bar. The owners of both places are partners so its put into their cash register to order. Nice. Right as I was leaving the place was filling up so I just decided I had enough and came home. I had 3 alaskan ambers on tap. Love that beer so much. I felt buzzed. As I am driving out of the parking lot run into Lee, an old friend and so I followed him home and got to visit w/ him and carolyn. It was good to see. It had been along time. And they live just a few blocks from the house. We got caught up on whats been going on and then they showed me what they had been doing to their back property. Gave me some great ideas. Especially for pavers in the yard. The pavers are octagone shape and you just lay them down on the ground and it gives it such a cool shape. So I think that will be my easiest thing to do in the yard as far as where I wanted to put pavers. Break up the rock. But their daughter is graduating high school and wants to be slave labor for $10.00/hr and she knows how to do alot of stuff in the yard thanks to her parents and so I told her I will be calling her. She could come over when I am not around and do certain things that need to be done and save me time. So kool I am going to get my property in order. Nice.
Anyway, we are heading down to phoenix around 9ish and go shopping for Shekei. Shopping on JJ's money. I already took her to a concert and bought her the dvd. So we are going to add a few more things to the pile.
I got a load of clothes in the washer right now. Going to wear shorts and a top, it will be in the low 90's. We will be inside most of the time so no biggie. I am going to get my car washed on the way over to his place. Its filthy. I really need to clean out the inside, maybe tomorrow.
Going to Yoga tomorrow. One of the girls at work owns a yoga studio. So she invited several of us to go for free. The girl teaching will be a physical therapist. I need help w/ my back. One spot on my spine that just kills me. Looking forward to doing that. It is a good workout that makes you feel strong and flexible. Like I told JJ it will make me flexible for other things. He just laughed.
Off to get ready! Have a great Sat!
Her party is at 3 at some place called D&B, there are names for the letters but I only remember the D&B. Its a resturant and game place for children and adults. I am excited about going there. But what I am truely excited about is spending time w/ my man today. I have missed him something aweful. Jr isnt going because he is working from 1pm to 10 or 11pm. W/ him, he wont be up early and he will get up just in time to get ready and go to work. We are coming back tonight.
JJ is talking about spending the night w/ me so I am not asking its his decision on what he does. But he is helping me turn my mattress tomorrow and put the dishwasher back together now that we know it wont leak anymore. So that will help me alot.
I did get off work, couldnt get a pedi, so I headed towards my side of town and decided to stop for a beer or 2. No matter when I decide to go that guy Billy is there. Next door to the bar is this barbeque place that does smoked barbeque brisket sandwiches. So I decided to eat an early dinner and got a sandwich, cole slaw, and their smoked potatoe salad. OMG, it was so good. I loved their potatoe salad. Yummy. I wanted more of just that. But the sandwich was so good. So at lease now there is a barbeque place I can go to for a quick to go meal and get a beer also. You can order it at the bar. The owners of both places are partners so its put into their cash register to order. Nice. Right as I was leaving the place was filling up so I just decided I had enough and came home. I had 3 alaskan ambers on tap. Love that beer so much. I felt buzzed. As I am driving out of the parking lot run into Lee, an old friend and so I followed him home and got to visit w/ him and carolyn. It was good to see. It had been along time. And they live just a few blocks from the house. We got caught up on whats been going on and then they showed me what they had been doing to their back property. Gave me some great ideas. Especially for pavers in the yard. The pavers are octagone shape and you just lay them down on the ground and it gives it such a cool shape. So I think that will be my easiest thing to do in the yard as far as where I wanted to put pavers. Break up the rock. But their daughter is graduating high school and wants to be slave labor for $10.00/hr and she knows how to do alot of stuff in the yard thanks to her parents and so I told her I will be calling her. She could come over when I am not around and do certain things that need to be done and save me time. So kool I am going to get my property in order. Nice.
Anyway, we are heading down to phoenix around 9ish and go shopping for Shekei. Shopping on JJ's money. I already took her to a concert and bought her the dvd. So we are going to add a few more things to the pile.
I got a load of clothes in the washer right now. Going to wear shorts and a top, it will be in the low 90's. We will be inside most of the time so no biggie. I am going to get my car washed on the way over to his place. Its filthy. I really need to clean out the inside, maybe tomorrow.
Going to Yoga tomorrow. One of the girls at work owns a yoga studio. So she invited several of us to go for free. The girl teaching will be a physical therapist. I need help w/ my back. One spot on my spine that just kills me. Looking forward to doing that. It is a good workout that makes you feel strong and flexible. Like I told JJ it will make me flexible for other things. He just laughed.
Off to get ready! Have a great Sat!
Friday, April 25, 2008
Woohoo, its Friday!
I am so happy its Friday. No call. Get off at 2:30. Woohoo,I passed my test for pals, yea!!!!!!!!!!!! I also had a dead battery when I got out. Diane gave me a jump and followed me to Auto Zone and I bought a battery and they replaced it for me. That was so awesome. NO CHARGE. Nice.
Good news on jr. drug test, negative. Probation officers coming by constantly. Starts job at Sonic. All good news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dont know if he is going w/ us to Phoenix for the day because he might be working. If he does, he does, if he doesnt, he doesnt. I am telling you I feel so much lighter now. And happier. Life is good.
We are going down to phoenix to shop for Shekei for her birthday. 15 years old. I also have for her, the dvd of BonJovi from the lost highway. She will love it. I am just going to be so excited to see my man. Havent seen him since Monday. We are missing each other so badly.
Today I am going to try to get a pedicure, wash my car, and go home and walk the dogs. Get out in the sunshine. Then get some stuff done. If JJ gets back early enough then we will meet to go to dinner, if not I will see him in the morning.
Hope all have a great Friday!!!!
Good news on jr. drug test, negative. Probation officers coming by constantly. Starts job at Sonic. All good news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dont know if he is going w/ us to Phoenix for the day because he might be working. If he does, he does, if he doesnt, he doesnt. I am telling you I feel so much lighter now. And happier. Life is good.
We are going down to phoenix to shop for Shekei for her birthday. 15 years old. I also have for her, the dvd of BonJovi from the lost highway. She will love it. I am just going to be so excited to see my man. Havent seen him since Monday. We are missing each other so badly.
Today I am going to try to get a pedicure, wash my car, and go home and walk the dogs. Get out in the sunshine. Then get some stuff done. If JJ gets back early enough then we will meet to go to dinner, if not I will see him in the morning.
Hope all have a great Friday!!!!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Good Nite Sleep!
I looked at the cd for pals and it didnt help at all. Sucked. So I will just go forward to class and deal. I then went to bed and started reading my new earth book along w/ the audio. I had taken an ambien. The wind is back and so needless to say its loud against my house but the ambien just helps me sleep hard and not hear it. So needless to say I got a good nites sleep and woke up at 5:30 instead of 6.
I am getting to enjoy my coffee prior to jumping in to the shower and get ready for this class. I am going to go by the hospital because our department is having a free breakfast. Breakfast is a good way to get your day started. I always have that.
Well hope have a wonderful day!
I am getting to enjoy my coffee prior to jumping in to the shower and get ready for this class. I am going to go by the hospital because our department is having a free breakfast. Breakfast is a good way to get your day started. I always have that.
Well hope have a wonderful day!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Busy Day
Busy busy at work again but I got to work in preop and get patients ready and all of the patients were great. One was wierd and high maintanence but got thru it. So all in all good day.
Got off and went and got my hair done. Why is it that when you get your hair done it just gives you such a life and makes you look pretty even at the end of the day when your makeup is almost gone. Love it. This was only 4 weeks because I couldnt get in next week and I am out of town the next week and that will be 2 long. My roots would be so grey. So all we did was the roots, didnt need to do foils or anything else. She trimmed it up and I was wondering why it was so flat. I do it, its thicker but doesnt lay the same, you know. She uses this anti friz stuff and so I bought a bottle. You use just a tiny bit and put it thru your hair after its comb thru and then blow dry. Now I can have salon hair anytime. Bought a flat iron already so I am set. Woohoo. It looks so good w/ my new glasses. It will be easy in the morning since I dont have to do my hair.
I have to say also that because I have changed my attitude JJ is talking to me about jr and I am just listening and being encouraging. I am not asking about him otherwise. I keeping my conversations about us and whats going on. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder.
I did get called into my bosses office and she brought to my attention about my calling sick 4 times since dec. I didnt realize it until she showed me and then I thought oh my god, I cant get sick anymore. She was giving me any warning per say, as far as official. She did point out that I have such a good heart and care so much that it effects me emotionally and that it ends up making me sick. I totally agreed. I love my boss because we could sit and discuss whats going on. She was a little worried because Jr is back in town and she knew how hard it could be on me. I reassured her and told her Monday was hard for sure and that I woke up yesterday and decided on my new attitude. She told me you are such a good nurse. I told her I dont want anything to effect my job. I dont want to go there. So it was a good wake up call.
I did decide that next year regardless I am selling this house and what ever money I get I am putting it away and rent a place. I will be debt free and my monthly payment will be lower for a place and I can put money away towards a bigger down payment. Until I know for sure whats up I will not buy another house for alittle while. So I feel good about that decision.
Well off to study for pediatric life support class tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Got off and went and got my hair done. Why is it that when you get your hair done it just gives you such a life and makes you look pretty even at the end of the day when your makeup is almost gone. Love it. This was only 4 weeks because I couldnt get in next week and I am out of town the next week and that will be 2 long. My roots would be so grey. So all we did was the roots, didnt need to do foils or anything else. She trimmed it up and I was wondering why it was so flat. I do it, its thicker but doesnt lay the same, you know. She uses this anti friz stuff and so I bought a bottle. You use just a tiny bit and put it thru your hair after its comb thru and then blow dry. Now I can have salon hair anytime. Bought a flat iron already so I am set. Woohoo. It looks so good w/ my new glasses. It will be easy in the morning since I dont have to do my hair.
I have to say also that because I have changed my attitude JJ is talking to me about jr and I am just listening and being encouraging. I am not asking about him otherwise. I keeping my conversations about us and whats going on. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder.
I did get called into my bosses office and she brought to my attention about my calling sick 4 times since dec. I didnt realize it until she showed me and then I thought oh my god, I cant get sick anymore. She was giving me any warning per say, as far as official. She did point out that I have such a good heart and care so much that it effects me emotionally and that it ends up making me sick. I totally agreed. I love my boss because we could sit and discuss whats going on. She was a little worried because Jr is back in town and she knew how hard it could be on me. I reassured her and told her Monday was hard for sure and that I woke up yesterday and decided on my new attitude. She told me you are such a good nurse. I told her I dont want anything to effect my job. I dont want to go there. So it was a good wake up call.
I did decide that next year regardless I am selling this house and what ever money I get I am putting it away and rent a place. I will be debt free and my monthly payment will be lower for a place and I can put money away towards a bigger down payment. Until I know for sure whats up I will not buy another house for alittle while. So I feel good about that decision.
Well off to study for pediatric life support class tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Okay now for the rest of the day!
Well Biker I thought about what you said and like I said in return what I say here is here not to him. I wouldnt do that. I couldnt hurt him like that.
I am glad I took a new attitude because I had a much better day. I got off work and got my other new glasses and paid my insurance. Came home and took the dogs for a nice walk. It felt so good to get out in the sun. The dogs enjoyed it and I just got to sit in the sun and relax. Nice, very nice!
JJ called while I was doing this and actually I was sending him a picture of me smiling to tell him I was thinking of him. I do feel better and know that somehow we will work it out. I need to try to be positive also. So by standing back and let JJ come to me, it will be for the best and that is the best support I can give him.
I was talking to my mom and she said Letera maybe you need to broaden your horizons and if a date w/ someone else comes up go for it but this isnt what its about. I want to be w/ him. I truely love him and know he loves me and just have to know that it will all be worth it. He is worth it!
Life is so crazy sometimes. So I will not be talking about jr except the facts. Need to get that negativeness out of my brain. but if I need to vent then so be it, I will vent here and not to JJ.
I am glad I took a new attitude because I had a much better day. I got off work and got my other new glasses and paid my insurance. Came home and took the dogs for a nice walk. It felt so good to get out in the sun. The dogs enjoyed it and I just got to sit in the sun and relax. Nice, very nice!
JJ called while I was doing this and actually I was sending him a picture of me smiling to tell him I was thinking of him. I do feel better and know that somehow we will work it out. I need to try to be positive also. So by standing back and let JJ come to me, it will be for the best and that is the best support I can give him.
I was talking to my mom and she said Letera maybe you need to broaden your horizons and if a date w/ someone else comes up go for it but this isnt what its about. I want to be w/ him. I truely love him and know he loves me and just have to know that it will all be worth it. He is worth it!
Life is so crazy sometimes. So I will not be talking about jr except the facts. Need to get that negativeness out of my brain. but if I need to vent then so be it, I will vent here and not to JJ.
Another meme!
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player tags 5 people and posts their name, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know they've been tagged and asking them to read your blog.
***
What I was doing 10 years ago:
10 years ago, I was married living in Lubbock, Texas. Working as nurse in a pacu(recovery room.
Five Snacks I enjoy:In a perfect, non weight-gaining world
1. Chocolate, dark of course
2. Mint chocolate chip ice cream
3. crackers w/ cheese
4. Cheese burgers and fries
5. Chocolate martini's
In the real world
1. fruit
2. cereal
3. chicken
4. popcorn w/ butter
5. whole wheat products
Things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Defiately have the house of my dreams near the water and a place near the mountains
2. Take my parents to Italy
3. Travel
4. Give to charity
5. travel more
Five jobs that I have had:
1. In high school, worked at a woolworth (5&dime) 1st as a waitress 2nd as a cashier and 3rd serving italian ices and selling costume jewelry outside of the store
2. Worked at a hotdog place in New Jersey
3. Joined the navy and was a corpman
4. Worked in a chiropractors office and then a phlebotomist at a hospital
5. And now an RN
Three of my habits:
1. Love being w/ my boyfriend
2. Love my tivo and catch up on shows
3. I say Wonderful alot apparently
Five place I have lived:
1. Elizabeth and Linden, NJ
2. In the navy, was in Orlando, Florida for boot camp; Great Illinois for corp school;Guam;Oakland and Velejo, Cal for Xray school; and then finally Charleston, SC
3. Lubbock, Tx
4. Flagstaff, Az
5. I guess I answered more then 5 w/ # 2.
Wow amazing to look back on my life.
I tag Bikercandy. My names dont highlight, whats that about?
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player tags 5 people and posts their name, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know they've been tagged and asking them to read your blog.
***
What I was doing 10 years ago:
10 years ago, I was married living in Lubbock, Texas. Working as nurse in a pacu(recovery room.
Five Snacks I enjoy:In a perfect, non weight-gaining world
1. Chocolate, dark of course
2. Mint chocolate chip ice cream
3. crackers w/ cheese
4. Cheese burgers and fries
5. Chocolate martini's
In the real world
1. fruit
2. cereal
3. chicken
4. popcorn w/ butter
5. whole wheat products
Things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Defiately have the house of my dreams near the water and a place near the mountains
2. Take my parents to Italy
3. Travel
4. Give to charity
5. travel more
Five jobs that I have had:
1. In high school, worked at a woolworth (5&dime) 1st as a waitress 2nd as a cashier and 3rd serving italian ices and selling costume jewelry outside of the store
2. Worked at a hotdog place in New Jersey
3. Joined the navy and was a corpman
4. Worked in a chiropractors office and then a phlebotomist at a hospital
5. And now an RN
Three of my habits:
1. Love being w/ my boyfriend
2. Love my tivo and catch up on shows
3. I say Wonderful alot apparently
Five place I have lived:
1. Elizabeth and Linden, NJ
2. In the navy, was in Orlando, Florida for boot camp; Great Illinois for corp school;Guam;Oakland and Velejo, Cal for Xray school; and then finally Charleston, SC
3. Lubbock, Tx
4. Flagstaff, Az
5. I guess I answered more then 5 w/ # 2.
Wow amazing to look back on my life.
I tag Bikercandy. My names dont highlight, whats that about?
Okay here it goes for the meme!
) Write your own six word memoir;
Hmmmmm, My 6 word memoir would be change; happy for the most part, okay dont let the last 4 words count toward my 6; Challenging at times;exciting;fun;social
2) Post it on your blog and include a visual illustration if you’d like;
Cant do it for some reason.
3) Link to the person that tagged you in your post, and to the original post if possible so we can track it as it travels across the blogosphere;
4) Tag at least five more blogs with links; and
5) Don’t forget to leave a comment on the tagged blogs with an invitation to play!
I tag Ciarra
I am stumped on how to tag. Sorry, I would love to learn and also how to put illustrations.
Hmmmmm, My 6 word memoir would be change; happy for the most part, okay dont let the last 4 words count toward my 6; Challenging at times;exciting;fun;social
2) Post it on your blog and include a visual illustration if you’d like;
Cant do it for some reason.
3) Link to the person that tagged you in your post, and to the original post if possible so we can track it as it travels across the blogosphere;
4) Tag at least five more blogs with links; and
5) Don’t forget to leave a comment on the tagged blogs with an invitation to play!
I tag Ciarra
I am stumped on how to tag. Sorry, I would love to learn and also how to put illustrations.
meme
I will answer this once I am home later. How do I do this, on my blog or on yours Biker? I just had lunch and am feeling much better. Work has been busy but good for the soul. I think I am going to work extra here and there just to get ahead. So there are going to be weekends I wont be able to go to phoenix. JJ will have to rely on himself w/ his kids w/o me. I decided I am going to be a little selfish but not mean.
I feel good about my decision of stepping back and just be interested in how JJ is doing and how we are doing. I am glad I spoke up last nite also so he knows how I feel. And he knows I need some alone time w/ him on Friday. Even if it is just dinner alone. Then I will head home.
The weather is just beautiful and there is hardly any wind. I am excited about taking the dogs out for a walk. They are going to be so excited. Its been awhile since I have been a good mom and taken them out for a walk. It will be good for both of us.
I feel good about my decision of stepping back and just be interested in how JJ is doing and how we are doing. I am glad I spoke up last nite also so he knows how I feel. And he knows I need some alone time w/ him on Friday. Even if it is just dinner alone. Then I will head home.
The weather is just beautiful and there is hardly any wind. I am excited about taking the dogs out for a walk. They are going to be so excited. Its been awhile since I have been a good mom and taken them out for a walk. It will be good for both of us.
A better Day
A better Day. I really did some soul searching and made some decisions. I am going to change my attitude. I am going to stand back and let JJ take care of his son w/o my opinions or attitudes. I am not going to ask him anything about jr. I will let him tell me what he wants. I am going to put myself 1st and take care of my business. I have neglected stuff and need to get back on track.
Life will be good.
Life will be good.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Hard day
I ended up getting called in twice, once at 9:30, home and asleep by midnight and then again at 3:30, left work at 6am. Came home and crashed for a couple of hours.
Got woked up by JJ to meet him to drop off the car. He got back w/ jr. As hard as I tried I couldnt shake this feeling of lost and sadness. Its like living a bad nightmare all over again. All of our plans have just crashed to the floor.
But we went to the school and talked a little. He is trying to be positive. I understand but its hard to be positive when you are pretty sure of the outcome.
Then later we laid together in bed and just talked and held each other. It was very peaceful and comforting at the same time but still I am still not over the shock of this whole thing. We talked about the girls because their mom called and talked to him about some stuff. We talked about how his style of parenting is opposite of hers and how he has got to follow thru and give tough love and that is so damn hard for him.
JJ talked w/ the probation officer and they are drug testing jr tomorrow and he will go in front of the judge in 2 weeks. He will be on a short lease until then. Went to the school to see about getting him in. Now the school here is waiting to hear back from the school in California. So all of that is in place.
Got to visit w/ Dido and get some perpective on this. She totally agreed w/ what he is doing and understands this is so tough. She said it and I agreed that if I cant handle it, I need a new boyfriend and this is totally true. Its so hard because I love him and I admire him for doing what he has to do. This all just says such alot about him and those qualities are what I admire about him so much. He is such a good person and Dido agreed totally. But she did make a suggestion, I should go for my 6 counseling sessions that I get free to maybe learn some tools to deal w/ this. So tomorrow I am going to make an appointment and see when they can get me in. I need some tools. I need to do this for me and also to keep sane w/ this whole thing.
The thing w/ jr is that he is going to make his bed. What happens in the next 2 weeks will determine alot of what will take place. Talking to dido in Florida, she said Letera you have to maybe distant yourself and know that this is his problem that he needs to deal w/. Jr will push things to where he will get fed up with it. You can be there to listen but not keep telling him what a fuck up he is. It will strain our relationship and this true. I am going to listen to him but also let him know when we hopefully can go out by ourselves on Friday afternoon or Sunday, only for a couple of hours that I need support to and acknowledgement that this is hard on me also that he appreciates what I have and am doing for him. Its funny to say that since he always shows that to me. I just need to hear it right now.
I am leaving for Dallas a week from Friday. Yea! I need a break to clear my head and come back w/ a clear mind. Just to get away from it will be wonderful. Alot will happen here also. Kerrie's mom and step dad are coming to Az that weekend and they will get together since that is the weekend of the anniversary of Kerrie's death.
The break will be good for both of us.
I feel like I have so much to get done w/ so little time to do it. I am excited about going and seeing Val and her honey. Dido will love Val. It will be so fun. Going out to eat and shopping and just girl time plus learning time. I am ready to learn new things. We are going to the melting pot Sat nite, just the girls. We are going to have such a great time.
I am going to also listen to New Earth again to get some perpective on this. I need to hear all that mumbo jumbo again. Well on to stuff to do for me.
Got woked up by JJ to meet him to drop off the car. He got back w/ jr. As hard as I tried I couldnt shake this feeling of lost and sadness. Its like living a bad nightmare all over again. All of our plans have just crashed to the floor.
But we went to the school and talked a little. He is trying to be positive. I understand but its hard to be positive when you are pretty sure of the outcome.
Then later we laid together in bed and just talked and held each other. It was very peaceful and comforting at the same time but still I am still not over the shock of this whole thing. We talked about the girls because their mom called and talked to him about some stuff. We talked about how his style of parenting is opposite of hers and how he has got to follow thru and give tough love and that is so damn hard for him.
JJ talked w/ the probation officer and they are drug testing jr tomorrow and he will go in front of the judge in 2 weeks. He will be on a short lease until then. Went to the school to see about getting him in. Now the school here is waiting to hear back from the school in California. So all of that is in place.
Got to visit w/ Dido and get some perpective on this. She totally agreed w/ what he is doing and understands this is so tough. She said it and I agreed that if I cant handle it, I need a new boyfriend and this is totally true. Its so hard because I love him and I admire him for doing what he has to do. This all just says such alot about him and those qualities are what I admire about him so much. He is such a good person and Dido agreed totally. But she did make a suggestion, I should go for my 6 counseling sessions that I get free to maybe learn some tools to deal w/ this. So tomorrow I am going to make an appointment and see when they can get me in. I need some tools. I need to do this for me and also to keep sane w/ this whole thing.
The thing w/ jr is that he is going to make his bed. What happens in the next 2 weeks will determine alot of what will take place. Talking to dido in Florida, she said Letera you have to maybe distant yourself and know that this is his problem that he needs to deal w/. Jr will push things to where he will get fed up with it. You can be there to listen but not keep telling him what a fuck up he is. It will strain our relationship and this true. I am going to listen to him but also let him know when we hopefully can go out by ourselves on Friday afternoon or Sunday, only for a couple of hours that I need support to and acknowledgement that this is hard on me also that he appreciates what I have and am doing for him. Its funny to say that since he always shows that to me. I just need to hear it right now.
I am leaving for Dallas a week from Friday. Yea! I need a break to clear my head and come back w/ a clear mind. Just to get away from it will be wonderful. Alot will happen here also. Kerrie's mom and step dad are coming to Az that weekend and they will get together since that is the weekend of the anniversary of Kerrie's death.
The break will be good for both of us.
I feel like I have so much to get done w/ so little time to do it. I am excited about going and seeing Val and her honey. Dido will love Val. It will be so fun. Going out to eat and shopping and just girl time plus learning time. I am ready to learn new things. We are going to the melting pot Sat nite, just the girls. We are going to have such a great time.
I am going to also listen to New Earth again to get some perpective on this. I need to hear all that mumbo jumbo again. Well on to stuff to do for me.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
A new day!
Today is a new day! I had a good cry last nite feeling like I have had a lost and was mourning it. I went to bed and decided I need to let it go. Nothing I can do about it. I had the wierdest dreams. The 1st one scary and wierd, cant really describe it to you. 2nd one took place in a resturant w/ Terry and Andrew McCarthy. Terry looked like from a long time ago, when we did amway, in fact he is wearing this corduroy suit he wore at one time. We are at a resturant and order breakfast and its taking forever. Its Easter. Anyway, we have to go to bed to sleep and I am trying to keep to myself in the bed but Terry is pulling me near him to hold me. We wake up and breakfast is still not ready. There is all this easter stuff ready for us w/ our names on it and they said breakfast is just taking awhile to make. Then I woke up. So anyway wierd or what.
I dont know if I mentioned it but the other day I was watching something on tv and the scene wasnt but 30 secs to a minute and it showed this couple separating and it brought me back to the day and time of our separation. It was like reliving everything over. I just cried. I talk to JJ about it and he was kind and asked if I was okay. I was and I was over it but its wierd how something can bring you back to a moment in time and those feelings that went along w/ it.
But anyway I decided this is a new day and a new beginning. Especially because I feel so much better. I am having my 1st cup of coffee for the week. I have decided that I am going to just support and be there for JJ. Ellie reminded me of how solid we are and so strong, And how he is so dedicated to me. And he is. I know he is doing this because he loves his son and he is kind hearted. So I know he has to do what he needs to do for his son to get him to age 18. So we will just work around this and get thru it. Like my mom said if I want to be w/ this man then I have to support him and be there for him. Jr will be 18 in a year and 8 months. We will figure this out. I will know that I have my own place to come back to where I have peace. So there you go. I am glad I have my blog to vent.
I am 1st call today. I will probably work today and thats okay. I need to. The wind has been blowing so hard. There are 80 mph gusts at the back of my house. Its aweful and its cold. I hate spring here. Its keeping me from being outside to work on my yard. Instead of worrying about the outside I will work inside and clean. Start in the kitchen, do laundry, and start wiping everything down. Not go crazy especially because I could be up all nite at work. At lease feel like I got something done.
This morning is the reunion show for Rock of Love 2. I have to watch it to see if the girl he picked this time will want to be w/ him and watch the other girls be stupid girls.
Hope all are well. Hope you had a wonderful time Bikercandy on your trip. Cant wait to hear about it.
I dont know if I mentioned it but the other day I was watching something on tv and the scene wasnt but 30 secs to a minute and it showed this couple separating and it brought me back to the day and time of our separation. It was like reliving everything over. I just cried. I talk to JJ about it and he was kind and asked if I was okay. I was and I was over it but its wierd how something can bring you back to a moment in time and those feelings that went along w/ it.
But anyway I decided this is a new day and a new beginning. Especially because I feel so much better. I am having my 1st cup of coffee for the week. I have decided that I am going to just support and be there for JJ. Ellie reminded me of how solid we are and so strong, And how he is so dedicated to me. And he is. I know he is doing this because he loves his son and he is kind hearted. So I know he has to do what he needs to do for his son to get him to age 18. So we will just work around this and get thru it. Like my mom said if I want to be w/ this man then I have to support him and be there for him. Jr will be 18 in a year and 8 months. We will figure this out. I will know that I have my own place to come back to where I have peace. So there you go. I am glad I have my blog to vent.
I am 1st call today. I will probably work today and thats okay. I need to. The wind has been blowing so hard. There are 80 mph gusts at the back of my house. Its aweful and its cold. I hate spring here. Its keeping me from being outside to work on my yard. Instead of worrying about the outside I will work inside and clean. Start in the kitchen, do laundry, and start wiping everything down. Not go crazy especially because I could be up all nite at work. At lease feel like I got something done.
This morning is the reunion show for Rock of Love 2. I have to watch it to see if the girl he picked this time will want to be w/ him and watch the other girls be stupid girls.
Hope all are well. Hope you had a wonderful time Bikercandy on your trip. Cant wait to hear about it.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Need to vent
I need to vent. I am so pissed, no angry, actually. I talk to JJ and he tells me that jr's mom calls and asks what time is he picking jr up and his grandpa wants to take him out to dinner and he wants to have a last few minutes w/ his brothers and sisters. What the fuck?@!!!! She made it sound so fucking desperate and now all of sudden its all find and he's okay w/ it and blah blah blah. This is all suck bullshit. This fuckin kid and his mother are just amazing. I am just coming to hate this kid. I hate that I feel that way but I am feeling that way right now. Jr calls JJ and says what so your turning me in. Well you know what fuck yeah. I need to realize that its not my kid, I can not make these decisions but this all effects me and our relationship.
I will be glad when this kid goes to jail. He needs it. He is so fucking manipulating. Him and his mother both. I know JJ feels so in the middle and he wants to do whats right by his kid. I need to let the anger go and know I am in my peaceful home. And at the same time it just hurts so bad too because its going to take away from us. I want to be selfish but I know I cant be. If I want to be w/ JJ then the kids are part of the deal and what ever that entales.
I just need to know when to say something and when not to. This just sucks!
I will be glad when this kid goes to jail. He needs it. He is so fucking manipulating. Him and his mother both. I know JJ feels so in the middle and he wants to do whats right by his kid. I need to let the anger go and know I am in my peaceful home. And at the same time it just hurts so bad too because its going to take away from us. I want to be selfish but I know I cant be. If I want to be w/ JJ then the kids are part of the deal and what ever that entales.
I just need to know when to say something and when not to. This just sucks!
Life is a constant change
Boy does the title of my blog say it all. I went to JJ's and hung out and while I am there or should I say in the middle of things jr's mom calls and JJ has to take it. She tells him he has to come and get jr or he is on the street. He is totally out of control He is cutting school, piss test came back positive, and the probation officer told him that they would give him a break and let him retest. He is in fights and when he went to Cal he had a gun. What the hell, where did that come from. They got in touch w/ the probation officer here and that if JJ brings him back they will arrest him on Monday because he has violated his probation. This kid needs boot camp. He is nothing but trouble w/ a capital T.
So we rented a car for JJ to drive to Cal. to go get him. jr doesnt know he is coming or else he might run. And who knows if he will still try it. This whole thing just sucks so bad for everyone. Things have been so smooth and now this. Well that changes everything. He will not be moving back in w/ me in August. And since jr wont be 18 til a year from Dec I wont put my house on the market to move.
This makes me so sad. I am proud of JJ for stepping up to be there for his son. I told him he needs a boot camp. Big time. If jr goes up in front of the same judge then she will have no mercy on him. And that will defiately be for the best.
Our time together will be cut back immensely. I told him I am here for him and that I love him. He said Thank you I appreciate it and that he loved me too.
So we rented a car for JJ to drive to Cal. to go get him. jr doesnt know he is coming or else he might run. And who knows if he will still try it. This whole thing just sucks so bad for everyone. Things have been so smooth and now this. Well that changes everything. He will not be moving back in w/ me in August. And since jr wont be 18 til a year from Dec I wont put my house on the market to move.
This makes me so sad. I am proud of JJ for stepping up to be there for his son. I told him he needs a boot camp. Big time. If jr goes up in front of the same judge then she will have no mercy on him. And that will defiately be for the best.
Our time together will be cut back immensely. I told him I am here for him and that I love him. He said Thank you I appreciate it and that he loved me too.
Relapse
I ended up being so sick yesterday again. Went to the doctor. She put me on phenergan, anti nausea med. I ended up w/ a GI bug. She said she just had it herself and it lasted several days. I know I got it from Shekei. Anyway I went to the walk in clinic, frickin expensive but my doc was out of the office til Tues. I went to the store and bought bland bland bland stuff. Today is the 1st day I am waking up and not feeling nauseated. I woke up and my clothes were wet, I guess from sweating it out.
So woohoo I am on my way back from being sick. I told JJ I am afraid to go around the girls due to them getting stuff from their baby brother. He understood.
I slept for awhile yesterday and then made myself drink and eat. What a concept, making myself eat and drink. The girls were suppose to meet and Sher got the same thing, and Ellie's son got sick. Crazy. Its going around.
My plan for today
Go to the store for Dog food
Pay my water Bill
Go get trash bags and clorox wipes to wipe every thing down.
And I am on Back up call. I hopefully will get lucky today and not get called in. Tomorrow is 1st so I will work probably a bunch. We will see.
Well off to get started on my day.
So woohoo I am on my way back from being sick. I told JJ I am afraid to go around the girls due to them getting stuff from their baby brother. He understood.
I slept for awhile yesterday and then made myself drink and eat. What a concept, making myself eat and drink. The girls were suppose to meet and Sher got the same thing, and Ellie's son got sick. Crazy. Its going around.
My plan for today
Go to the store for Dog food
Pay my water Bill
Go get trash bags and clorox wipes to wipe every thing down.
And I am on Back up call. I hopefully will get lucky today and not get called in. Tomorrow is 1st so I will work probably a bunch. We will see.
Well off to get started on my day.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Feeling better
I am finally feeling better. I decided to look at other blogs. There are so many out there of different types and kinds. I was blown away by them. I looked at one about a monk to a geisha girl. I didnt know how big this was. It was kool seeing how everyone does theirs. The pics and sayings and such. I cant figure out how to put pics in the blog each day. I have tried to cut and copy and it doesnt work.
Its 3:03 in the afternoon and I am ready to get back on track. I will take it easy for the rest of the day and then start anew tomorrow.
JJ has called me thru out the day to see how I am. He touches my heart in so many ways. He truely cares and loves me and I feel the same. It was so nice just having him near. With this new schedule our time is just so limited. But it makes it that much more fun to see him.
Well off to rest up for a long weekend ahead of me on call. yuck. extra money though. I am hoping the weather is nice so I can work in the yard. Do some things I have wanted to do. I think JJ is going to a barbeque out of town. One of the guys he works w/ invited him and so I hope he has fun. I am so glad he is getting to know more people.
Hope all are having a great day!
Its 3:03 in the afternoon and I am ready to get back on track. I will take it easy for the rest of the day and then start anew tomorrow.
JJ has called me thru out the day to see how I am. He touches my heart in so many ways. He truely cares and loves me and I feel the same. It was so nice just having him near. With this new schedule our time is just so limited. But it makes it that much more fun to see him.
Well off to rest up for a long weekend ahead of me on call. yuck. extra money though. I am hoping the weather is nice so I can work in the yard. Do some things I have wanted to do. I think JJ is going to a barbeque out of town. One of the guys he works w/ invited him and so I hope he has fun. I am so glad he is getting to know more people.
Hope all are having a great day!
Sick
Well to good to be true but caught something from Shekie and possibly Dido's son. I think I have some kind of stomach virus. Nauseated and all the rest. sucks. This was not in my plans of things to do this week.
JJ came over and spent the night w/ me which was very comforting. I actually started feeling better prior to his arrival and then this am I got up and got sick. So not quite over it yet.
I hope he doesnt catch it. He is not having a good day. They didnt send any help w/ him and he has a hugh load to deliver. I still dont understand this company at all.
Not much else going on. I am just ready to feel better. No word on jr. The probation officer hasnt called him and jr hasnt called him. I know he is worried about him.
Shekie is finally better also. So I am sure what I have will soon pass also.
JJ came over and spent the night w/ me which was very comforting. I actually started feeling better prior to his arrival and then this am I got up and got sick. So not quite over it yet.
I hope he doesnt catch it. He is not having a good day. They didnt send any help w/ him and he has a hugh load to deliver. I still dont understand this company at all.
Not much else going on. I am just ready to feel better. No word on jr. The probation officer hasnt called him and jr hasnt called him. I know he is worried about him.
Shekie is finally better also. So I am sure what I have will soon pass also.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Day off
Today is my day off. My plan was to work on the yard but the wind is blowing so hard, its making this thought difficult. Suppose to warm up to 70 so maybe in a little while I can go out and brave the elements. lol.
Like I said in my previous blog the concert was amazing and now I am playing the dvd of the lost highway. Its defiately not the same but its still good. Love them. Get to hear what the songs meanings are. kool.
Saturday we got up and took the girls to Raw Hide. Its a town east of Phoenix thats a western town. We had a good time. Saw a couple of shows, rode a stagecoach and a train. paned for gold, joke joke. Had our picture taken in jail and whats funny about that is I am the only one smiling. The rest look like they are in jail. Cracked me up.
My friend Sher in Phoenix was having a party and invited us so we went over there. It was fun. They cooked out, drank some beers, Sammy went swimming w/ Sher's daughter. All in a fun day. Got back to the hotel and the damn hot tub, cold. sucked.
Went to bed and kept getting woke up by the damn room next to us. The only saving grace was the air conditioner came on and I could go back to sleep.
Unfortuately Sunday am Shekie got sick and kept throwing up. Poor baby. Got her home but had to go thru the car wash because she lost it on the way home. She was still sick Sunday nite. Felt so bad for her.
Once we dropped them off and was heading back stopped for lunch at Red Robin. They are good. Good variety of everything.Lots of food for the money.
So all in all it was a good weekend til JJ got a call from jr's uncle and of course imagine this he is fucking up. Arent we all surprised. No. Got his brother in trouble for being under the infuence at school. Got in a fight w/ a kid and the kid's brother's in a gang who has threatened to kill him. JJ called the probation officer and left a message w/ him to call him. He hasnt heard anything yet. He is going to tell him to check on whats going on in Cal. This kid is going to be lucky to survive. He isnt listening to his uncle, grandfater, no one. Mom was kicking him out on the street and of course she doesnt call JJ to let him know about anything going on. He has been trying to get in touch w/ jr for weeks. Just sad. jr didnt want to come back here because he didnt want to keep getting beat up by JJ. Whatever. IF anything JJ was to damn easy on his ass. Its almost like its hopeless. Hate to say it but true. Well enough of this.
Made it thru work yesterday. So tired. But had a nice afternoon w/ JJ. We went for a short walk, got me some, and he cooked out on the grill. It was just nice to have time alone. It was only a couple of hours but it was nice. Brent came home and they wanted to go throw balls, practice for softball coming up and so I went off to meet Dido and we went for a good 30 to 45 mins walk.
I got to sleep in today which helped. Got to decide what to do. I know I am meeting up w/ Dido to do Jazz today at 4:15. Need a good workout.
Other wise I need to just look around and work on my house. I am so glad this weekend I am on call and we are not going anywhere. Need to stay in town.
Off to take care of business.
Like I said in my previous blog the concert was amazing and now I am playing the dvd of the lost highway. Its defiately not the same but its still good. Love them. Get to hear what the songs meanings are. kool.
Saturday we got up and took the girls to Raw Hide. Its a town east of Phoenix thats a western town. We had a good time. Saw a couple of shows, rode a stagecoach and a train. paned for gold, joke joke. Had our picture taken in jail and whats funny about that is I am the only one smiling. The rest look like they are in jail. Cracked me up.
My friend Sher in Phoenix was having a party and invited us so we went over there. It was fun. They cooked out, drank some beers, Sammy went swimming w/ Sher's daughter. All in a fun day. Got back to the hotel and the damn hot tub, cold. sucked.
Went to bed and kept getting woke up by the damn room next to us. The only saving grace was the air conditioner came on and I could go back to sleep.
Unfortuately Sunday am Shekie got sick and kept throwing up. Poor baby. Got her home but had to go thru the car wash because she lost it on the way home. She was still sick Sunday nite. Felt so bad for her.
Once we dropped them off and was heading back stopped for lunch at Red Robin. They are good. Good variety of everything.Lots of food for the money.
So all in all it was a good weekend til JJ got a call from jr's uncle and of course imagine this he is fucking up. Arent we all surprised. No. Got his brother in trouble for being under the infuence at school. Got in a fight w/ a kid and the kid's brother's in a gang who has threatened to kill him. JJ called the probation officer and left a message w/ him to call him. He hasnt heard anything yet. He is going to tell him to check on whats going on in Cal. This kid is going to be lucky to survive. He isnt listening to his uncle, grandfater, no one. Mom was kicking him out on the street and of course she doesnt call JJ to let him know about anything going on. He has been trying to get in touch w/ jr for weeks. Just sad. jr didnt want to come back here because he didnt want to keep getting beat up by JJ. Whatever. IF anything JJ was to damn easy on his ass. Its almost like its hopeless. Hate to say it but true. Well enough of this.
Made it thru work yesterday. So tired. But had a nice afternoon w/ JJ. We went for a short walk, got me some, and he cooked out on the grill. It was just nice to have time alone. It was only a couple of hours but it was nice. Brent came home and they wanted to go throw balls, practice for softball coming up and so I went off to meet Dido and we went for a good 30 to 45 mins walk.
I got to sleep in today which helped. Got to decide what to do. I know I am meeting up w/ Dido to do Jazz today at 4:15. Need a good workout.
Other wise I need to just look around and work on my house. I am so glad this weekend I am on call and we are not going anywhere. Need to stay in town.
Off to take care of business.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Short Note
This will be a short note on the weekend for now. The concert was absolutely the Best ever!!!! I have been to so many and love them all but this blew all of the other concerts out of the water. Daughtry was good but Bon Jovi was awesome! Even though we were up above and behind the stage it didnt matter. The screens they use help us see them so close up better then if we were in front of the stage. The show started at 7:30 and we left the area at 11 to 11:30. The music was endless. It was just amazing. I loved every minute. Shekei loved it. She was so excited about the concert. As we were driving home she thanked me and told me she will never forget this moment as long as she will live. I was so happy to be there w/ her. At one point I looked out at the stadium and just took it all in and just enjoyed the moment. I got teary eyed because it was just so amazing.
Well off to bed. Exhausted. The room next to us at the hotel played their frickin music all nite til this am w/ the base being up high. I am very tired! More to come tomoorow!
Well off to bed. Exhausted. The room next to us at the hotel played their frickin music all nite til this am w/ the base being up high. I am very tired! More to come tomoorow!
Friday, April 11, 2008
Woohoo its Friday!
Well today I am off and its Friday! I did stay in town last nite. I got off work, got some running around done and then hung out at JJ's til Jazz started. I did my class which I was so glad I did. okay so thats 3 times this week. My period is almost over so I will feel thinner. Yea!!!!
But anyway got invited to meet people from work downtown so after I went downtown and met up w/ them. It was nice being around people who I dont normally have anything to do w/. Mainly people from the OR like surgeon, anesthesiologist, nurses, and others. Had a nice time. Since my honey wasnt going to be home til 8 or 8:30 I picked him something up and brought it back to his place. He was so appreciative. I ended up staying the night. He had to get up at 3am, yuck, so I got up then and came home. My pups were happy. Went back to bed. Slept in. So now I feel descent.
Tonight is the Bon Jovi Concert. I am excited but will be more excited later. Since I have been listening to The New Earth I am living in the moment. Trying not to get ahead of my life. It will be so fun to see Shekei's reaction to who we are seeing.
JJ and Sammy will hang out while we are at the concert doing something fun. Then meet back up after. It will be a great nite. I cant believe after 20 years I am seeing him again. I saw them in the 80's when they were 1st around and now after all this time. I love Jon the lead singer. He is just way to hot. Richie, hmmmm, dont know anymore. But all in all it will be good. I am looking forward to seeing Daughtry, an american idol star. I like some of his music.
I have to decide what I am going to get done today prior to leaving town. There are several things I can do. Here is just a few of the things I would like to get done.
1) clean up kitchen. I am so bad anymore about cleaning the kitchen up right away. Being by myself it is okay.
2) water my trees and plants. Things are maybe going to finally warm up here. We are going into the 60's. Woohoo.
3) Make up sugar water for the hummingbirds. They are back. It was wierd seeing the
1st one the other day while it snowed. Poor thing, it must have been cold. They are so little. When they are back we are in spring and about to see summer. Woohoo.
4) Pack a bag to go to Phoenix. Grap my ticket and reservation sheet for the hotel.
It is going to be high 80's to 90's. Tomorrow will be relaxation time at the pool. JJ especially needs it and I do after this week.
I didnt post what happen at work this week. We have had huge schedules of people having surgery this week. The schedule is so long it is hanging off the desk at work. Lots of short fast cases and kiddos. So everyone is busting their butts and working hard. Well Wed afternoon I have one lady and then get another gentleman. The husband to the lady comes to find out how she is doing. Well I walk out there and he reams me out. He was so furious that he hadnt been updated in the last 2 hours. I do understand how sitting in the waiting room is and I tried to explain what was happening but he was furious. I walked back in and went back to take care of my patients. My lady was afraid to go home so after talking to her and reassuring her its okay to stay in the hospital one night if she is afraid to go home. So we get her a room. Well this day I started my period and was teary eyed that morning for a minute but this just put me over the edge. I stayed calm and got both patients to their room and my charge nurse told me I could go home. I only went home alittle early. I left work in tears. I realized I didnt do anything wrong its the fricken hormones. So I decided to go have a drink at my local bar and I walk in and the guy that was in there was the guy who Melanie messed w/ and I took care of. If I could have walked out I would of but I didnt and he thanked me for taking care of him and bought my drink and told me what a great job I did taking care of him. I needed that reassurance. So it all ended well. I went home took a nap and felt alot better.
Yesterday was much better.
So anyway that is what I need to do today. I am also hoping to get a pedicure prior to leaving. I have to decide on what to wear to the concert. Hope all have an awesome weekend.
But anyway got invited to meet people from work downtown so after I went downtown and met up w/ them. It was nice being around people who I dont normally have anything to do w/. Mainly people from the OR like surgeon, anesthesiologist, nurses, and others. Had a nice time. Since my honey wasnt going to be home til 8 or 8:30 I picked him something up and brought it back to his place. He was so appreciative. I ended up staying the night. He had to get up at 3am, yuck, so I got up then and came home. My pups were happy. Went back to bed. Slept in. So now I feel descent.
Tonight is the Bon Jovi Concert. I am excited but will be more excited later. Since I have been listening to The New Earth I am living in the moment. Trying not to get ahead of my life. It will be so fun to see Shekei's reaction to who we are seeing.
JJ and Sammy will hang out while we are at the concert doing something fun. Then meet back up after. It will be a great nite. I cant believe after 20 years I am seeing him again. I saw them in the 80's when they were 1st around and now after all this time. I love Jon the lead singer. He is just way to hot. Richie, hmmmm, dont know anymore. But all in all it will be good. I am looking forward to seeing Daughtry, an american idol star. I like some of his music.
I have to decide what I am going to get done today prior to leaving town. There are several things I can do. Here is just a few of the things I would like to get done.
1) clean up kitchen. I am so bad anymore about cleaning the kitchen up right away. Being by myself it is okay.
2) water my trees and plants. Things are maybe going to finally warm up here. We are going into the 60's. Woohoo.
3) Make up sugar water for the hummingbirds. They are back. It was wierd seeing the
1st one the other day while it snowed. Poor thing, it must have been cold. They are so little. When they are back we are in spring and about to see summer. Woohoo.
4) Pack a bag to go to Phoenix. Grap my ticket and reservation sheet for the hotel.
It is going to be high 80's to 90's. Tomorrow will be relaxation time at the pool. JJ especially needs it and I do after this week.
I didnt post what happen at work this week. We have had huge schedules of people having surgery this week. The schedule is so long it is hanging off the desk at work. Lots of short fast cases and kiddos. So everyone is busting their butts and working hard. Well Wed afternoon I have one lady and then get another gentleman. The husband to the lady comes to find out how she is doing. Well I walk out there and he reams me out. He was so furious that he hadnt been updated in the last 2 hours. I do understand how sitting in the waiting room is and I tried to explain what was happening but he was furious. I walked back in and went back to take care of my patients. My lady was afraid to go home so after talking to her and reassuring her its okay to stay in the hospital one night if she is afraid to go home. So we get her a room. Well this day I started my period and was teary eyed that morning for a minute but this just put me over the edge. I stayed calm and got both patients to their room and my charge nurse told me I could go home. I only went home alittle early. I left work in tears. I realized I didnt do anything wrong its the fricken hormones. So I decided to go have a drink at my local bar and I walk in and the guy that was in there was the guy who Melanie messed w/ and I took care of. If I could have walked out I would of but I didnt and he thanked me for taking care of him and bought my drink and told me what a great job I did taking care of him. I needed that reassurance. So it all ended well. I went home took a nap and felt alot better.
Yesterday was much better.
So anyway that is what I need to do today. I am also hoping to get a pedicure prior to leaving. I have to decide on what to wear to the concert. Hope all have an awesome weekend.
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
The Weekend!
I am so glad the day is over. I am so tired. I did go work out for 35 mins. Our schedule was huge and several kids. 1 kid we had to hold when I left for 4 hours. Not right. Its going to be the same tomorrow.
Looking forward to this weekend w/ the girls. Friday taking Sheke to the Bon Jovi Concert. Sat will be breakfast and then fun in the sun. It will in the 90's. I am so looking forward to rest and relaxation. Going to this mexican food resturant that we went to the last time. It will be yummy!
2 more days of work and then play time! Woohoo.
Its suppose to snow here tomorrow. 40% chance of either snow or rain. I got out to put gas in my car and oh my god, the wind was blowing so hard and it was so cold. Only put $20.00, thats a joke. Only $20.00 and got maybe 4 to 5 gallons. Crazy.
$3.25/gallon. Thats unleaded.
Looking forward to this weekend w/ the girls. Friday taking Sheke to the Bon Jovi Concert. Sat will be breakfast and then fun in the sun. It will in the 90's. I am so looking forward to rest and relaxation. Going to this mexican food resturant that we went to the last time. It will be yummy!
2 more days of work and then play time! Woohoo.
Its suppose to snow here tomorrow. 40% chance of either snow or rain. I got out to put gas in my car and oh my god, the wind was blowing so hard and it was so cold. Only put $20.00, thats a joke. Only $20.00 and got maybe 4 to 5 gallons. Crazy.
$3.25/gallon. Thats unleaded.
Sleep in
I got to sleep in til almost 6. Nice. I feel pretty rested. I did find out this am that skim mild doesnt do the same thing in my new thing to make the mild fluffy. I guess I got 2% hmmmm. Thats alright, I will just make due.
The game last nite was so good. I am not a basketball fan but that was a great game down to the last milisecond. Kansas came from behind and did it. Memphis just couldnt do it at the end. Good Job Kansas.
Well off to get ready for work, have to be there at 7:30. Get to go directly to Jazz for 4:15. Work out was good yesterday.
I cant believe in 3 weeks I will be in Dallas. Damn! Time is just moving on by.
The game last nite was so good. I am not a basketball fan but that was a great game down to the last milisecond. Kansas came from behind and did it. Memphis just couldnt do it at the end. Good Job Kansas.
Well off to get ready for work, have to be there at 7:30. Get to go directly to Jazz for 4:15. Work out was good yesterday.
I cant believe in 3 weeks I will be in Dallas. Damn! Time is just moving on by.
Monday, April 7, 2008
done
Done for the day. At JJ's hanging out waiting for Jazz to start. Did good on food today and plan on working out. Work was good. So all in all good day. Awaiting JJ to get home. I also I have to go get Dido since she is w/out a vehicle.
Hope all are doing well.
Hope all are doing well.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Great time!
We had such a great time. We have some funny memories from our over nite trip to Prescott. We got there and couldnt check in and so we headed over to the casino to the bar to watch the UCLA game. After 15 mins of playing a poker machine and only putting in $10.00, I won $349.00. Woohoo. I had a couple of bloody mary's and a corona. I ordered another corona and this older lady who is the bartender tells me I need to drink this one slowly or maybe wait alittle while to have another drink. We had been there an hour and 1/2. We were also eating a phily cheese steak sandwich. She tells me its good you are eating. I sat there thinking what the fuck. I looked at JJ and said am I drunk or acting out or what, he said nope. She was rude to alot of people. It pissed off because I thought who are you. We are there, we are not driving and we are there to enjoy our time and have beer. Couldnt believe it. I have never been told that before. I drank water and just didnt make eye contact w/ her. I just said you know what I am a nurse and I am not stupid. The other side is in Az you pay for your drinks. They do not give them to you. I am here to enjoy myself. She tells me I hope you can under stand. What ever on that one. UCLA lost and so we decided to leave the bar and go play black jack. JJ gave me chips as he won to put away and let me play. He walked away w/ $165.00. Nice.
We finally got to check into our room and it was absolutely gorgeous. They remolded and it was nice. The colors they picked and it was just beautiful. 2 beds in the room so I said 2 beds to enjoy sex on. Woohoo. We even had a balcony.
But anyway we got changed and got a cab and headed to Wiskey Row. Its this block of shops and bars. So we decide to go each bar and have a beer so we can check them all out. When our cab driver picks us up, he calls his cab the trash cab, not cash cab, but trash cab. He was fun. We laughed all the way to there.
We watched interesting people in all of them. The last one we went to had a live band and they were okay. So we decided to sit down on this platform and watch people. There was mullet man and also a chick who looked like Carla from Cheers. We were just laughing so hard. Some chick came in and was selling roses and he bought me a red rose. Very sweet.
We caught a cab back and were laughing w/ the 2nd cab driver. JJ is so funny. He is so quick witted. We got back and decided we needed food and did that. Then went back out and played black jack again. It was all fun.
Finally about 12:30am we went back to our room and crashed hard. We finally got up and use the pool and jacuzzi. We had it to ourselves. I had one last $5.00 chip that we went into the casino and I played and lost. The dealer had a 6 and so she would have to play and what does she get but an ace to make 17. I had 14. Figures. We got up and left and went and got some breakfast.
Got back here about 11. Its an hour to an hour and 1/2 drive. Nice drive though. Easy Easy.
We went by the mall because he needed some dickie shorts and I had a 40% off coupon to buy this cute top I wanted that I have been watching so I got it. It look so nice on. Dress it up or dress it down. Black w/ white daisy's and layer with thin material. Just looks nice on.
I think I will wear to the concert on Friday nite to see Bon Jovi and Daughtry.
I took JJ home and told him it will be nice when I am not taking him home and we are heading back to this home instead. He totally agreed. I got home and my neighbors gave me a bottle of wine, a card and a $25.00 gift card for World Market. OMG I was in shock. So now that makes $150.00. I am going to wait to spend it and watch for a 20% off coupon instead of maybe get lucky and get a 40% off one like I have in the past. You never know. My mom is going to look also. I was telling her about the couch table and the entertainment center also that match. She suggested using the money from the government that we are getting and buy all 3 pieces. Thats an idea also. I get their emails all the time so I can wait and watch.
Well on the work front for JJ they are giving him a day off Monday and maybe do that each week. That would make it more tolerable for him for sure. So there you go. He is still looking but a day off each week would give him some recover time and let him get stuff done that he needs to get done. So time will tell.
I truely had a great birthday. I am very blessed and loved. I am in such a great place in my life. Thank you god.
We finally got to check into our room and it was absolutely gorgeous. They remolded and it was nice. The colors they picked and it was just beautiful. 2 beds in the room so I said 2 beds to enjoy sex on. Woohoo. We even had a balcony.
But anyway we got changed and got a cab and headed to Wiskey Row. Its this block of shops and bars. So we decide to go each bar and have a beer so we can check them all out. When our cab driver picks us up, he calls his cab the trash cab, not cash cab, but trash cab. He was fun. We laughed all the way to there.
We watched interesting people in all of them. The last one we went to had a live band and they were okay. So we decided to sit down on this platform and watch people. There was mullet man and also a chick who looked like Carla from Cheers. We were just laughing so hard. Some chick came in and was selling roses and he bought me a red rose. Very sweet.
We caught a cab back and were laughing w/ the 2nd cab driver. JJ is so funny. He is so quick witted. We got back and decided we needed food and did that. Then went back out and played black jack again. It was all fun.
Finally about 12:30am we went back to our room and crashed hard. We finally got up and use the pool and jacuzzi. We had it to ourselves. I had one last $5.00 chip that we went into the casino and I played and lost. The dealer had a 6 and so she would have to play and what does she get but an ace to make 17. I had 14. Figures. We got up and left and went and got some breakfast.
Got back here about 11. Its an hour to an hour and 1/2 drive. Nice drive though. Easy Easy.
We went by the mall because he needed some dickie shorts and I had a 40% off coupon to buy this cute top I wanted that I have been watching so I got it. It look so nice on. Dress it up or dress it down. Black w/ white daisy's and layer with thin material. Just looks nice on.
I think I will wear to the concert on Friday nite to see Bon Jovi and Daughtry.
I took JJ home and told him it will be nice when I am not taking him home and we are heading back to this home instead. He totally agreed. I got home and my neighbors gave me a bottle of wine, a card and a $25.00 gift card for World Market. OMG I was in shock. So now that makes $150.00. I am going to wait to spend it and watch for a 20% off coupon instead of maybe get lucky and get a 40% off one like I have in the past. You never know. My mom is going to look also. I was telling her about the couch table and the entertainment center also that match. She suggested using the money from the government that we are getting and buy all 3 pieces. Thats an idea also. I get their emails all the time so I can wait and watch.
Well on the work front for JJ they are giving him a day off Monday and maybe do that each week. That would make it more tolerable for him for sure. So there you go. He is still looking but a day off each week would give him some recover time and let him get stuff done that he needs to get done. So time will tell.
I truely had a great birthday. I am very blessed and loved. I am in such a great place in my life. Thank you god.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
The past and present!
I got an email today from a professor in Terry and I's past that taught both us a class in computers at SPC. He also dated a friend of ours and chamalamadindong. She got very sick and her life turned upside down, inside out, topsy turby to do w/ drugs, hep C, and a man who loved her and wanted to give her the world to rejecting him and going after the worse absolute guy they was. This guy burnt her house down, stole her car, and burnt it up, and somehow he kept on and died. The girl went onto overdosing on drugs and was in a coma and almost died but just has real bad brain damage. The man who loved her, the professor, still takes her out to lunch once a week. The girl lives in a nursing home. She is in her late 30's, early 40's. She burned all bridges of any kind. Well now the professor has stayed teaching there, met someone and married, and bought a house in Levelland. He still sees the girl once a week as I said. He did not know Terry and I divorced.
When I saw the email that said finally I thought he was going to tell me she died. She is just living out her days. Wow. I contacted cham to just let her know.
Wow when I think back to the life and all that that entailed. Whew, thank you lord, that I am not anymore.
Dont know if I really want to speak w/ him or not. We will see.
Alright, onto the present.
One of JJ's uncle's died, his mom's brother. He was the same age as my mom.
We are still planning to go to Prescott. This trip will be about relaxing and having fun. Just us and no one else. I am driving us down there so JJ can just relax. We are going to get checked into the hotel and get to Wisky Row to watch the 1st basketball game of the final 4. UCLA is playing. He doesnt care about the 2nd one as much so that will free us to go somewhere to eat and maybe just go back to the hotel to use the pool and jacuzzi. I am excited about our get away.
So I need to go start getting ready and pack my bag. Next door neighbor will feed the dogs tonight and in the morning so that we dont have to hurry back. This will be better then Laughlin. hour and 1/2 drive.
Oh has anyone been watching the Tudors on Showtime. About King Henry the VIII. Costumes, story line, characters, and the sexual tension great. Its been a good history lesson on England and the church. 2nd season started. I am saving the premier episode for when I get back.
Hope all have a great weekend.
When I saw the email that said finally I thought he was going to tell me she died. She is just living out her days. Wow. I contacted cham to just let her know.
Wow when I think back to the life and all that that entailed. Whew, thank you lord, that I am not anymore.
Dont know if I really want to speak w/ him or not. We will see.
Alright, onto the present.
One of JJ's uncle's died, his mom's brother. He was the same age as my mom.
We are still planning to go to Prescott. This trip will be about relaxing and having fun. Just us and no one else. I am driving us down there so JJ can just relax. We are going to get checked into the hotel and get to Wisky Row to watch the 1st basketball game of the final 4. UCLA is playing. He doesnt care about the 2nd one as much so that will free us to go somewhere to eat and maybe just go back to the hotel to use the pool and jacuzzi. I am excited about our get away.
So I need to go start getting ready and pack my bag. Next door neighbor will feed the dogs tonight and in the morning so that we dont have to hurry back. This will be better then Laughlin. hour and 1/2 drive.
Oh has anyone been watching the Tudors on Showtime. About King Henry the VIII. Costumes, story line, characters, and the sexual tension great. Its been a good history lesson on England and the church. 2nd season started. I am saving the premier episode for when I get back.
Hope all have a great weekend.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Relaxed
I am finally home. I finally got up at 8:30 or so, and headed to the hospital and ate breakfast. Went and had my massage. You dont really know how sore you are til someone touches your back. She got some really sore spots. I headed back towards home to look at the coffee table at World Market. Its $249.00. W/ my 10% discount and $125.00 gift cards I will only have to put out a $100.00 plus tax. Not bad. I will eventually get the entertainment center for the tv. Its higher then the coffee table which makes sense and there is room for my receiver, vcr, and dvd player. It would just make that room and the color would look good against my couch.
Got me some chinese food from the mall and now I am home. Brought all my stuff in and plugged in the dophins. It is the coolest thing. They are made of this blue glass and there is electical waves going thru. The smaller dolphin in the front has pink to green color coming and the larger one has white coming up. You touch the dolphin and it slows the speed of the electical waves thru it. I just love it. JJ did good. I read all my cards again and there were some funny ones and some really nice ones. Its just really nice to be so loved.
I looked back at my pics that Ellen took and they came out so good. I love the one of Shane and I and JJ and I. I looked so happy in the pics.
Well off to relax for a few and then clean up my kitchen of dishes and clutter. Get a good nite sleep so I can play again on Sat.
Got me some chinese food from the mall and now I am home. Brought all my stuff in and plugged in the dophins. It is the coolest thing. They are made of this blue glass and there is electical waves going thru. The smaller dolphin in the front has pink to green color coming and the larger one has white coming up. You touch the dolphin and it slows the speed of the electical waves thru it. I just love it. JJ did good. I read all my cards again and there were some funny ones and some really nice ones. Its just really nice to be so loved.
I looked back at my pics that Ellen took and they came out so good. I love the one of Shane and I and JJ and I. I looked so happy in the pics.
Well off to relax for a few and then clean up my kitchen of dishes and clutter. Get a good nite sleep so I can play again on Sat.
Awesome
Well I have to say I had the most awesome birthday. I am up early. Will go back to bed after this and sleep for alittle while longer.
The girls picked me up and we headed downtown. They gave me balloons and made me carry them to the resturant. They got me a teramisu cake. Yummy.
Right after we got there, several more people showed up and then JJ got there. I did my share of tequilla shots, the good stuff, and I feel fine. I am telling you the tomatoe juice is the trick. I finally ate. The company was awesome also. My boss showed up w/ her husband for another dinner at the same place. Some of the docs I work with were doing a dinner w/ a possible other doc.
OMG I couldnt believe the gifts. I got a nice top, a bottle of chiani red wine, a homemade bottle of Peach schapps, a mug, a couple of margarita glasses, plastic, which is great for the pool area, $125.00 of gift cards for World Market, $25.00 gift card to Pier One, and last but not lease a dolphin that I have to plug in and when you touch it, it shows waves. That was JJ. We stayed til about 8:30. Came home and had some great sex to end the evening.
It was so relaxing and made me feel so special. I am truely blessed. Oh whats funny between all the tequilla shots done they gave me the bottle and the waitress bought me a BJ shot. Yummy.
Off to bed again. Getting sleepy after eating some toast. I was starving because I didnt eat much. And who ever Ciara is thanks.
The girls picked me up and we headed downtown. They gave me balloons and made me carry them to the resturant. They got me a teramisu cake. Yummy.
Right after we got there, several more people showed up and then JJ got there. I did my share of tequilla shots, the good stuff, and I feel fine. I am telling you the tomatoe juice is the trick. I finally ate. The company was awesome also. My boss showed up w/ her husband for another dinner at the same place. Some of the docs I work with were doing a dinner w/ a possible other doc.
OMG I couldnt believe the gifts. I got a nice top, a bottle of chiani red wine, a homemade bottle of Peach schapps, a mug, a couple of margarita glasses, plastic, which is great for the pool area, $125.00 of gift cards for World Market, $25.00 gift card to Pier One, and last but not lease a dolphin that I have to plug in and when you touch it, it shows waves. That was JJ. We stayed til about 8:30. Came home and had some great sex to end the evening.
It was so relaxing and made me feel so special. I am truely blessed. Oh whats funny between all the tequilla shots done they gave me the bottle and the waitress bought me a BJ shot. Yummy.
Off to bed again. Getting sleepy after eating some toast. I was starving because I didnt eat much. And who ever Ciara is thanks.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
48
That is my new number. 48. Amazing to think that is the new number of my age. Wow. Time has flown by. I think back over my life and its been an interesting ride to say the lease. Just amazing. If I ever wrote a book it would be quite interesting for sure. Maybe when I am 90 if I live that long. I read Bikercandy's blog and it just me think about things and how things turned out in my life. I didnt think about kids when I was playing w/ the barbies. But I knew when I was 18 or 19, I told my aunt I dont want kids right away if ever. My cousin understood and told my aunt think about what Letera has been thru, would you have wanted kids? I went thru a horrible time when I lost babies. But now I am blessed w/ JJ's kids in my life. The girls are awesome and eventually Jr will be too. Time. God has a funny way of making things work out for the best. And I remember telling someone at work I wouldnt date or w/ guys my age or older. Did that. And here JJ was brought into my life and he is younger. Today he is 13 years younger. May 28, 12. lol. I have this great job and a nice home, and I live in a great place. I have my family and friends. So what more is there. I told someone at work that looking at my life, talking in regards to getting a bachelors or masters to do other things in nursing, I play all the time. Work can be a place to play at times and then my life is minimal responsibility. For now this is good. I dont want to take on a major responsibility such as school. No way.
Happy Birthday to me. Thank you to all who wished me a Happy Birthday. Last nite was so nice. I got my walk in and then on to meet JJ. We went to Beaver Street Brewery. It is a nice pizza place. They have this great Bramdel berry beer that I always have there. Yummy. Got a nice salad. JJ had one of their pizza's. He was so sweet and touched my heart last nite when he was concerned about me having a cake. He is so caring. He is going to get back early enough to be at the party tonight. I told Dido what he said because I was truely touched by the comment and told her I was okay if there wasnt but she reassured me to tell JJ there would be a cake. I have the bestest friends here. I have some really great friends all over. Friends that I will be friends w/ til death.
I took an ambien last nite so I could sleep. Woke up at 4:30 of course. Went back to sleep but not restful sleep. My head is feeling stuffed up and pressure. The weather is changing so probably what ever the barometer is, is effecting my head. I will go use my nettie pot.
I am drinking coffee w/ irish cream. Not moving fast. My goal is to get my kitchen cleaned up and the clutter cleared off the counter. I would also like to vacumn and put away clothes, might have to wait til tomorrow. No biggie if it doesnt get done.
Well off to clear my head. Have a good day!
Happy Birthday to me. Thank you to all who wished me a Happy Birthday. Last nite was so nice. I got my walk in and then on to meet JJ. We went to Beaver Street Brewery. It is a nice pizza place. They have this great Bramdel berry beer that I always have there. Yummy. Got a nice salad. JJ had one of their pizza's. He was so sweet and touched my heart last nite when he was concerned about me having a cake. He is so caring. He is going to get back early enough to be at the party tonight. I told Dido what he said because I was truely touched by the comment and told her I was okay if there wasnt but she reassured me to tell JJ there would be a cake. I have the bestest friends here. I have some really great friends all over. Friends that I will be friends w/ til death.
I took an ambien last nite so I could sleep. Woke up at 4:30 of course. Went back to sleep but not restful sleep. My head is feeling stuffed up and pressure. The weather is changing so probably what ever the barometer is, is effecting my head. I will go use my nettie pot.
I am drinking coffee w/ irish cream. Not moving fast. My goal is to get my kitchen cleaned up and the clutter cleared off the counter. I would also like to vacumn and put away clothes, might have to wait til tomorrow. No biggie if it doesnt get done.
Well off to clear my head. Have a good day!
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Starting a day early
Woohoo starting my birthday a day earlier. I got off 3 hours early. Came home got the curtains up. They look beautiful. I was standing in the hallway and looked from the guest bathroom around in front and to the right of the livingroom. It is looking so awesome. The colors are beautiful. Very warm.
Got home and my mom sent me my card and gift and so I opened it, couldnt wait. Got me a gift card from World Market for $50.00. Woohoo. What a great gift.
Cleaned off the table to see how it looks w/ the new placemats and napkins. I am working right to left where my table and kitchen are considered. I have to get rid of the cludder. Clean up my kitchen. Vacumn. I want to get that done by the time I am heading into town tomorrow.
I am going to head back to town to do a walk by Dido's house and then JJ will be back between 5 and 6 and he wants to take me out for dinner for my birthday. He feels bad he wont be there tomorrow because of work but so what, I will see him after and we are going out of town this weekend. He is so sweet and caring. I love him. He truely doesnt have to do this. I dont expect it.
I wont stay w/ him tonight because I dont want to leave the dogs 2 nights in a row. I will come back so I can wake up here and enjoy my coffee and working on my home.
The weather cant make up its mind if we are getting snow or rain. I just want moisture.
Life is good and I am so blessed. I am in a great place in my life right now.
Got home and my mom sent me my card and gift and so I opened it, couldnt wait. Got me a gift card from World Market for $50.00. Woohoo. What a great gift.
Cleaned off the table to see how it looks w/ the new placemats and napkins. I am working right to left where my table and kitchen are considered. I have to get rid of the cludder. Clean up my kitchen. Vacumn. I want to get that done by the time I am heading into town tomorrow.
I am going to head back to town to do a walk by Dido's house and then JJ will be back between 5 and 6 and he wants to take me out for dinner for my birthday. He feels bad he wont be there tomorrow because of work but so what, I will see him after and we are going out of town this weekend. He is so sweet and caring. I love him. He truely doesnt have to do this. I dont expect it.
I wont stay w/ him tonight because I dont want to leave the dogs 2 nights in a row. I will come back so I can wake up here and enjoy my coffee and working on my home.
The weather cant make up its mind if we are getting snow or rain. I just want moisture.
Life is good and I am so blessed. I am in a great place in my life right now.
Reservations are made
Reservation for Sat nite is made. We are staying at the Prescott Resort and Conference Center. It will be so nice to get away. We shall have lots of fun.
Good Morning to all. I fell asleep on the couch and woke up at midnight. I hate that. Went to bed and woke up at 5 and have not been able to go back to sleep.
So got up and made my coffee w/ fluffy creamy milk out of skim. Officially a hobo. Its like a treat big time. I love my new little gadget for this.
Got my money back from the hospital yesterday for my registration. Need to get that in the bank. Speaking of, my bank got robbed. It is in the the Alberson's grocery store. They havent caught the guy as of yet. Happened on Monday. How could someone do that in a grocery store. Where there are lots of people.
Hope all have a great day!
Good Morning to all. I fell asleep on the couch and woke up at midnight. I hate that. Went to bed and woke up at 5 and have not been able to go back to sleep.
So got up and made my coffee w/ fluffy creamy milk out of skim. Officially a hobo. Its like a treat big time. I love my new little gadget for this.
Got my money back from the hospital yesterday for my registration. Need to get that in the bank. Speaking of, my bank got robbed. It is in the the Alberson's grocery store. They havent caught the guy as of yet. Happened on Monday. How could someone do that in a grocery store. Where there are lots of people.
Hope all have a great day!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Yellow won out
Well the golden yellow curtains won out. So back to Linens n things w/ my 20%off coupons. I went in and took the one curtain back and gave them the 1st coupon for one panel. Took it out to the car and went back in w/ another coupon to get the 2nd panel. I didnt realize that the curtains themselves have more color then the scarf so it will look even better then expected.
So Thursday while I am off work I am changing out the curtains. Looking forward to getting some stuff done. Its suppose to snow on my birthday. Crazy Crazy.
I will stay home and enjoy until the evening when the festivities will start.
The last 2 days have been good. Monday though I was so tired that by lunch I was getting grouchy. Called JJ and we met up and went to the sports bar by the hospital for happy hour. It was very relaxing. Our time is truely so limited now. He did say yesterday it will be a little better when he moves in so at lease we will be together every evening. I agree. I do miss him.
Today got off 2 hours early and came home and laid down for alittle bit. Tired. But I did get up, went back into town, exchanged the curtains, and went and worked out.
I went by Safe Way and got stuff for salad. Picked up some of the new Kraft Zesty Italian dressing, no preservative. Yummy. Less calories or fat or something then Ranch. I love Ranch dressing. So now at lease I have cut out creamer and started using that cylinder to fluff up my milk, so no sugar in my coffee. And now my ranch. I am eating things w/ multi and whole grains to get my fiber.
I am going to thank my bosses tomorrow morning because I am so blessed to work where I do. I am in total shock on how things are done at the new place JJ is working. Its no wonder they are short. They abuse their employees. I was telling my dad and he couldnt believe it either. I am proud of JJ, he is going to tell them, either change things up so its not such long days or he is quiting. He truely is having a hard time w/ this. He is such a hard worker and a good employee but they dont care. No one works together and they are all for themselves. That is crap. I know Bikercandy you under stand this big time.
Well off to pay bills and get ready for work. Need to do some laundry.
So Thursday while I am off work I am changing out the curtains. Looking forward to getting some stuff done. Its suppose to snow on my birthday. Crazy Crazy.
I will stay home and enjoy until the evening when the festivities will start.
The last 2 days have been good. Monday though I was so tired that by lunch I was getting grouchy. Called JJ and we met up and went to the sports bar by the hospital for happy hour. It was very relaxing. Our time is truely so limited now. He did say yesterday it will be a little better when he moves in so at lease we will be together every evening. I agree. I do miss him.
Today got off 2 hours early and came home and laid down for alittle bit. Tired. But I did get up, went back into town, exchanged the curtains, and went and worked out.
I went by Safe Way and got stuff for salad. Picked up some of the new Kraft Zesty Italian dressing, no preservative. Yummy. Less calories or fat or something then Ranch. I love Ranch dressing. So now at lease I have cut out creamer and started using that cylinder to fluff up my milk, so no sugar in my coffee. And now my ranch. I am eating things w/ multi and whole grains to get my fiber.
I am going to thank my bosses tomorrow morning because I am so blessed to work where I do. I am in total shock on how things are done at the new place JJ is working. Its no wonder they are short. They abuse their employees. I was telling my dad and he couldnt believe it either. I am proud of JJ, he is going to tell them, either change things up so its not such long days or he is quiting. He truely is having a hard time w/ this. He is such a hard worker and a good employee but they dont care. No one works together and they are all for themselves. That is crap. I know Bikercandy you under stand this big time.
Well off to pay bills and get ready for work. Need to do some laundry.
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